This is... my apology topic...

[Mr_SaxMan]

Hey guys... I have several things I need to apologize for.

1. The biggest of them all, me claiming to leave. Really, I thought I would actually leave, my parents got really mad at me, and I expected to be completely obliterated from the internet... But that's obviously changed... And I've still been active in the chats. I really appreciate the goodbyes you gave me, but it feels horrible to know you have put them to waste for me. I'm not leaving now. But the day I do leave, I'll give you the choice of saying goodbye again, or not saying anything, because your goodbyes have already been previously accepted.

2. My worst problem is my negativity. My self hate. My low self esteem. I ♥♥♥♥♥ and ♥♥♥♥♥ all day about how I suck and how I can never do anything right, and how everybody else can do stuff better than me. It just brings ♥♥♥♥ to the forums. It brings the chats down from happy chatting to either depression, or just yelling at me to shut the ♥♥♥♥ up. I understand the advice you guys give me, and I really find it helpful sometimes... But I just don't have the will to follow through at other times. This has led me to huge arguments with best friends, moments where I bring others down. Times when I am very mean and attack at others. And that's just not what a friend should do... And I know this is a crappy excuse for actually becoming more positive, but all I can give is an "I'm sorry, I'll try harder next time."

3. I'm a level mod. I should be a role model. I shouldn't be making ♥♥♥♥ posts that don't deserve to be on the forum. I shouldn't be dead in the forums. I should be active, I should be helping out. I should be moderating what needs to be moderated. But I haven't been doing that, while other members deserve my position, and have worked very hard to earn level moderation. People like Star King, Republic, NanTheDark, they have who knows how many posts, and they are great members. Why not give them the position?

Just... I'm sorry for all of this. No I wishes or I could bes, I'm just not. And I'm sorry.

[Venexis]

Look, I'd really like to type up a lengthy paragraph or two or eight about how skewed you seem to think our opinions of you are. But I don't have time, so it'll have to be the short version.

I don't think anyone cares too much that you've been here more often than you said you would, we weren't there, we didn't know the circumstances surrounding your decision to leave. But hey, you obviously didn't have to leave. So why shouldn't we be happy about that?

Also, the staff picked you for the Level Mod position because they clearly thought you were the best man for the job. You're determined, intelligent, have a clear view of what's right and wrong, and can be impartial when the need arises. They didn't choose just anyone from the 22000+ members we currently have, they chose you.

And (last paragraph) everyone has crappy days, or weeks, or even months. We all know what that's like. So if you're having a crappy one, why shouldn't you be allowed to feel crappy about it? Maybe it's just me, but I find that the overall atmosphere of people being... I don't know... not happy, exactly, but downright off-the-wall bizarre cheers me up.

Well... I said this would be short, and it will be, because I'm out of time. Basically, I don't think you really need to apologize, but that's just my opinion. Life sucks sometimes, and hiding away from it in a corner doesn't make anything better.

[Yoshi Boo 118]

Don't sweat it, Sax. Things can change, and no one is going to get annoyed that you're still here

I'd like to add more, but Ven basically summed it up. As a fellow LeMod, we all make mistakes. From the staff to the normal members, there's highs and lows. All you need to do is get back on the horse and work hard, because we know you are a trustworthy, reliable member. : D

[MessengerOfDreams]

I believe you requested a lock? Good decision, because Venexis shut this thread down like Flo Rida at a club. Things will work out, Sax, and over the next two days I will be glad o do my part.