Things that you want to say.

[Karyete]

I have that feeling where I want to punch something really hard and curl up into a ball at the same time.

[Harmless]

everything okay?

[Karyete]

I just keep getting the feeling that I'm not really wanted, or that I'm just ticking everybody off.

I keep making plans with people, only to be cancelled on at the last minute. I try and help people, and I get pushed away. I feel like I'm in the way and nobody will communicate with me.

I mean hell, if people don't want me around, they can say so. It's easier for me to be told outright than to be strung along.

[Positron]

apparently "berenstein" is spelled "berenstain", even though I (and lots of other people) clearly remember it as berenstein bears and I'm kinda freaked out

But seriously the theory is pretty interesting even though it's pretty farfetched, and there are many variations on this site, suggest a read.

[Harmless]

I just keep getting the feeling that I'm not really wanted, or that I'm just ticking everybody off.

I keep making plans with people, only to be cancelled on at the last minute. I try and help people, and I get pushed away. I feel like I'm in the way and nobody will communicate with me.

I mean hell, if people don't want me around, they can say so. It's easier for me to be told outright than to be strung along.

Sorry to hear that, that used to happen with me a lot as well (it still happens, just not quite as often). Give it some time, there might be another reason other than they just don't want to see you.

[Doram]

I hate to say it, because it is horribly pessimistic, and I try to avoid that, but experience has proven it more than optimism quashes it, seriously hate to say it, but lots of people are REALLY unreliable. Ultimately, I take it as a challenge to make sure that I am as reliable as possible, to make up the gap, but I've long since given up on feeling bad when stuff that other people plan falls apart. Life sucks and is not fair far too often, and your truest challenge is not letting that drag you down.

With friends that I've tried to help, I've focused on a mantra of "Fix your corner." I encourage them to focus on making sure that they are doing the right thing within their own lives, and making sure that they are being responsible with everything that they are dealing with in their own lives, and let the gods or whatever worry about everything else. You are in control of precisely one thing in this universe, and that is your own self and the decisions and actions you make with it. Make sure that you are dealing with all of your problems immediately and to the best of your ability, and make your corner as beautiful as you can.

At that point, the hope is that you will make your corner beautiful, and if everyone makes their corner beautiful, every corner will be taken care of, and we will have made the world a beautiful place. And, if someone sees your beautiful corner, and wants to know how you do it, simply tell them what you are doing, and spread the knowledge about making a beautiful corner.

It's a bizarre duality where we are only capable and responsible for our own life, and yet we have to interact with everyone else as a part of it. It can make working together a confusing thing, as even though we rely on others, we are still only in control of ourselves. Until the world starts truly figuring itself out, you will find yourself traveling through a bunch of dirty corners, and you will have to be ok with it, if only because you will know that you are not in control of their corners, and there is simply nothing you can do. The best you can do, the only thing you can do, is take care of your own corner.

[Zunar]

I got fired from my job as a chef after I let the kitchen go up in flames

[Karyete]

Well it's 2AM here in britland and I think I just saw a clown walking down the street.

Clowns are freaky

[Zunar]

Did he give you a funny look?

[Harmless]

It's no secret people are unreliable af lol

I do my best to be as reliable as possible but ultimately I fail quite a bit more than I want to.