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Hello!

I never could get into Game of Thrones.

I guess I should let this little not too important thing out before I embarrass myself in other places: I just quit my first Survivor game. (This should go into Get Stuff Off Your Chest but hell I posted about my cancer there, I am NOT gonna scare my little younglings by posting there about a ♥♥♥♥ ORG). It hurt to do because it was based off of an unfair ruling that I contested, and by people I had been friends with for four years, who took my not at all personal but admittedly harsh claims and went very personal on the rebound. The whole thing helped me realize that I was taking this way too intensely. I thought that it would help me get back on my feet especially since my cancer diagnosis made me very sedentary. However, this became essentially a replacement for that nothingness, not a step out of it. I let the ol' aspie obsession take over. When I went into the hospital last I was doing everything I could to help my tribe despite them being fully understanding of my need for absence. At my aunt's wedding during a stressful challenge (the one the ruling was based off of) I could not stop thinking about the people I was with and how I could help them. This kind of obsession cannot be allowed to take over my life to such consuming ways.

The sad thing is both of the hosts, whom I had considered friends, were incredibly rude. It's a shame that it went that way, because she and I at least were really close, and I cannot help but notice it's always the ones I get closest with that I have those kinds of falling outs with. It's starting to make me feel like the social problem, because the amount of people I have been very close with and lost rather violently can be counted on two hands. One was insulting and catty, and one was trying to guilt trip me with her having no wifi and being sick, which, I don't mean to elicit sympathy, but I HOSTED A ♥♥♥♥ ORG FROM THE HOSPITAL WIFI WHEN I WAS ON BEDREST FOR CANCER, don't come at me with that ♥♥♥♥. And that's it. I don't need that ORG to substitute for life, but I damn sure do not need it to tell me that I am a fighter.

Today's math problem mission for me:200
Even if I liked math, I cant do 200 problems a day......

Almost screamed with excitement when I saw this.

for some reason I laughed really really hard when never gonna give you up played on the oldies station

Zunar wrote:Almost screamed with excitement when I saw this.

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT

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Looking for a good place to go from here, someplace active.

If this is meant to be an independent decision, that's fine too. I'm just terrible with taking initiative, and it would take me a while to get around to searching the Internet for the best place to continue through.

I mean, I'm sure there's a ton of niche reddit communities you'd probably be interested in. Have you looked around there?

Took peeks at Reddit before; seen some on the subject. I've been hesitant joining for some reason, though.

But if there is something for me there, a place to spread out my findings, I could give it a try.