by Oranjui » April 3rd, 2014, 8:17 pm
@chau I guess that makes sense too. I'm really on the far end of the introvert-extrovert spectrum though, so it's not like I'm always itching to be around people or anything :p If anything, socializing is almost a burden, but that's pushing it. i have a close-knit circle of friends that I can talk to for maybe an hour or two at most, then I have to go and read or nap or play games or something. Of course, playing MC or CAH or just chatting with you guys should technically count as socializing, but something about it makes my brain think it's not real. The withdrawn side of me wants to have me do my own thing, whether it be immersing myself in a good book, Netflix-binging, doodling, practicing my Wikipedia-fu, or whatever else. The social side of me wants to show what I do to others, like my MC builds, collected writings, sketches, discoveries, and Netflix logs, despite what I said in my last post. I feel inferior, but sharing makes me feel like other people care -- there's a purpose to anything I do. It keeps me out of a moody teen depression state even if it requires me to do what I wouldn't at first glance. If the internet went down I would lose my primary source of this satisfaction, but I would manage.
tl;dr: OJ still doesn't like people