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Happy Birthday Ven.
May the moose be with you and stuff. : 3

Happy birthday!

It's been two days now and I've not addressed this despite saying on both of those days it's not always about what you want and that sometimes in order to move forward as a human you need to allow other people to feel like they impacted you too. I'm really feverish and that's probably a big factor in suddenly becoming so metaphysical in a birthday topic of all places but what I wanted to say when I started typing this was that these topics make me uncomfortable. It would've been as simple as a "thanks guys" five minutes ago when I clicked that post reply button, but that would've felt like a shallow gesture to me, because I would've been aware of the fact that it's just an act on my part even if nobody else knew and I just can't really stand doing that to people anymore. So uh, I feel sick and awkward and kindof wish you guys wouldn't do these things to me (or at least not on the forums; chat doesn't feel as gimmicky, forums often feel a lot like waiting around and if the person the thread is addressed to never responds... well, that's just a lot of messy loose ends), but also that despite all the weirdness and unfamiliarity I appreciate all of you a lot and hope that a simple "thanks guys" can mean something to everyone now that all of that out in the open.

Thanks, guys.

Oops, I forgot.

Happy belated birthday from me as well.