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I never really thought about it much; it felt effortless most of the time, but I'm realizing that I somehow had learned frame-perfect timing. At least, that potential in me was going to become something, until I've continued to overwhelm myself with stress and constant sleep deprivation over at least a year.

Nowadays, my concentration would randomly slip up without warning, or my eyes twist and blur up trying too hard to focus.
My brain also seems to show a sluggish pace. I'd be late to realize a lot of different things before I could respond, unless I'm totally alert over a single thing (but it wouldn't help much so if I'm trying to avoid slipping up on my timing, which relies on my concentration).

From recent experiences, though, it seems a workaround is finding stimulation instead of trying harder. Problem is that I struggle getting my needed sleep, but I'm often kept restless with my OCD and such. It's too uncommon that I ever get in the zone playing my video games - still doesn't seem like I help myself.




So, I believe that if my severe OCD situation should be contained, I'd be more willing to initiate better sleep patterns. Don't you think that would be the best solution for me?

Nice!

Oddly enough I feel the same way, both with regards to concentration and picking up frame-perfect timings. Though that's not to take away anything from you - It's not easy to do something like that. Besides, the two of us are quite different

Something you could do to help yourself sleep is try to set a goal when to sleep by. Like pick a time (11:00 PM?) and try to make a goal out of that time (like be in bed by that time). Just a suggestion though.

Of course it wasn't all the time, even back then. It's really the stimulation that exposed it to me. Never thought about it much then, but would often be surprised by the results, doing things like stopping a microwave at "0", nailing a timer by the millisecond twice in a row (was too good to repeat, obviously), or finding some simple glitches among various video games.

Sadly, it was only growing before I nearly killed it. I'm quite concerned about how much sleep it would really take.


EDIT: 11pm would be too late, especially if I need to wake up at 5am. I'm thinking to myself something like 9pm, as harsh as that may be on me to a personal degree. (This is why I hate my OCD.)

Funny you mention this, as I recently talked to my uncle. He mentioned how one of his volleyball teammates remarked that he was "reacting too fast" for the ball. We get incredibly anxious to the point where our brains are in a sense 5 steps ahead of what is actually happening, I guess from some sort of "fight or flight" survival instinct part of anxiety.

I'm not trying to imply that you have extreme anxiety, but I was reminded of this thread during our discussion.

CedarBranch wrote:EDIT: 11pm would be too late, especially if I need to wake up at 5am. I'm thinking to myself something like 9pm, as harsh as that may be on me to a personal degree. (This is why I hate my OCD.)

5am wakeup times? Yikes dude. That definitely warrants sleeping at 7-9pm... what requires that even? Job?

Because AccessLink time frames. (Yeah, to a job where I start at 8am...)