I guess it's time to reply to stuff I've been late on, lol.
@Harm, sorry for being late, but I feel happy for you regardless. As long as you keep being awesome and keep making those amazing cello concerts on the Voice Chat you're a great person in my books, and gender is not something that should interfere with any of that. It's always a huge trouble to get used with pronouns though so forgive me in advance
Hey @npromin, those are feelings people happen to feel in any stage of their lives, and it's completely normal if you're just having a ♥♥♥♥ day with a really bad mood for whatever reason. If anything I hope it passes soon. Can't stress how much you need to go on the chat more often and talk, though. Unless you live in a non-welcoming timezone. In that case you can still post on How was your day.
Also, @Veso, it really saddens me that your last posts in this thread were just about depression and dark thoughts, and with the risk of sounding unconcerning, I feel like if it's a problem you are really having trouble dealing with and you need to adress it constantly in this thread, then it's better to get it off your chest with people IRL, be it friends, parents, heck, maybe even a psychologist if you happen to lack communication with any of those. It may seem incredibly hard to let yourself open up at first, but it's a lot better than keeping this rage and anger inside yourself. Acting is the only necessary step.
To lighten up this topic a bit, I've been trying the self-therapy Doram proposed some time ago, and analyzing things from an distant, objective point of view really helps a lot with my self-trusting problems. I can't help but to think the mirror and the post-it methods are kinda cheap, but in the end they also helped (my sister did question what the ♥♥♥♥ was wrong with me when I did the post it therapy though, lmao). Deep down I'm still wanting to keep a certain skepticism about my stuff and I still do value what people think a lot, and there are another things that I need to solve IRL, but that feedback from Doram was superb (again, sorry for being late). You are literally a ♥♥♥♥ (aka the best thing ever).