It's times like these something/someone punches me back into our dark and depressive reality. I do prefer thinking the positive way, no matter what happens. Even if others may think differently about me. However. There are things that do literally hunt me through my life, no matter what I'm doing and wether I'm trying or not. It's clearly impossible to think positive about it. I'm talking about death taking my beloved ones, deseases catching one by one as I'm standing around watching how one by one finds his/her irreversible rest in the cold hug of death.
At this point I'm rather sad as I lied to several people in these past days, telling that I'm busy. Tbh. I'm not more busy than I normally are (Even if that's already a good amount, though), however... I spent my time at worrying and being sad, rather than being productive after all. While I've been wasting my time with these things, I do need to say that I'm worrying about my left time. For me it'd be enough to fulfill my dream of taking my level design on another level, visiting some places and dying in a library (Uhm yeah. That'd be another story.)
I'm just 18, but tons of people I'm knowing died way too young, so I do worry if my time will be enough to do these things. It'd be a pity to end that soon after all.
-Beware rant twist-
Also ♥♥♥♥ cancer. Serious. There's barely something I'm hating as much as this ♥♥♥♥. None, literally none I'm knowing survived this fu and it's hunting me more than often enough as well. Especially if I consider a "not-so-small" incident that shoots myself into the direction of people, who literally asked for getting some. Just today there's another person I can add to the list suffering from this stuff.
So here I am, wasting my time, worrying. Couldn't it simply go on without something pushing you to the ground whenever you're about to forget about the cruelty of our world?
Also sorry for that rant. There are more than enough of them recently and I'm aware of none wanting to see one more of these. Especially if it's pretty much my own problem, if I'm not able to keep that stuff for myself. : /
Life is unfair
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Re: Life is unfair
by ~MP3 Amplifier~ » February 23rd, 2014, 12:23 pm
It's okay to rant, you know, and you probably couldn't have picked a better time to do it. I mean, there are at least 4 separate topics ranting in this forum right now, one of them being mine.
I don't know who or what the story is behind the person you just found out has cancer, but it's not all the same, okay? As I said to Ayray many months ago, a diagnosis of cancer =/= diagnosis of death.
Depending on the severity and the type, you can get people with a 90% chance of survival and more. You've already heard the story about my best friend, and she didn't even die from the cancer itself, which is the shocking part, as she had it particularly severe. So anyway, my point is, please try not to worry over things that may or may not happen. That's driven me and so many others completely insane, I mean it's okay to worry from time to time about people you love and care about, but try not to spend all your time thinking about it. It's already an amazing positive that medical research has been aimed at cancer so much, and I would even go as far as to say it's not very close to some of the most dangerous diseases out there anymore.
I don't know if this topic really wanted a lot of replies like this, or if you just wanted people to read it, but it caught my eye as most new topics in Serious Discussion do. Of course my advice and experience doesn't help everyone so I'm not expecting to suddenly uplift the whole world with this lol.
I don't know who or what the story is behind the person you just found out has cancer, but it's not all the same, okay? As I said to Ayray many months ago, a diagnosis of cancer =/= diagnosis of death.
Depending on the severity and the type, you can get people with a 90% chance of survival and more. You've already heard the story about my best friend, and she didn't even die from the cancer itself, which is the shocking part, as she had it particularly severe. So anyway, my point is, please try not to worry over things that may or may not happen. That's driven me and so many others completely insane, I mean it's okay to worry from time to time about people you love and care about, but try not to spend all your time thinking about it. It's already an amazing positive that medical research has been aimed at cancer so much, and I would even go as far as to say it's not very close to some of the most dangerous diseases out there anymore.
I don't know if this topic really wanted a lot of replies like this, or if you just wanted people to read it, but it caught my eye as most new topics in Serious Discussion do. Of course my advice and experience doesn't help everyone so I'm not expecting to suddenly uplift the whole world with this lol.
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Re: Life is unfair
by ChaosYoshi » February 23rd, 2014, 1:57 pm
It is possible to get rid of cancer, but you have to be very lucky. It's only when it is very small that it can be removed, but even that's not 100%. Even after therapies and/or surgeries, the cancer has a change of coming back, though the chance exponentially decreases over time. It's a very scary thing, and even scarier when its someone you know and love.
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Re: Life is unfair
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by WickedOreo » February 28th, 2014, 1:00 pm
This topic is very sensitive to me currently. The following may contain some sensitive information, so please read at your own risk.
I have a friend in school who is currently getting treatment for brain cancer. He is a senior and our band's drum major.
Also, I have not told this community, but both of my grandparents died of cancer last year, my grandmother on October 29th and my grandfather on December 27th. Well, one from complications leading to cancer. I had lived with my grandmother my entire life, and I've visited my father on several occasions since he lives in Florida.
My grandmother had been two types of cancer. The first type was breast cancer, which was easily removable and treatable (after a while of radiation treatments), and never came back. However, in September, she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer and needed a hysterectomy to remove the cancerous cells. Fortunately, she had caught it in its early stages, so she was released a few days after getting the surgery and was going to take some antibiotics. Unfortunately, that antibiotic in particular did not prevent a c. diff infection from occurring, which put her in the hospital again. They were able to give treatments before it did much damage, and for a few days, it looked really good, and that she would go home soon. Suddenly, she had gotten the infection back again due to the doctors taking her off of the medicine and it killed off her small intestine and colon, two organs in the body essential to survival. I remember that Tuesday when I had last saw her.
I still get throbbing heartaches when I think of my grandmother. It's hard not to cry even when typing this. My grandfather had brain cancer and when I saw him last (April 2013), he had personally told me that the doctors told him that he only had about a year to live (he had a stroke which caused the cancer to come back, along with paralyzing his right side of his body). I didn't know him as much, but he was about the most prominent male figure in my family (my father is not involved with the family).
It's likely, considering that my grandmother's side of the family is genetically predisposed to cancer, that I will also not live a full life due to a possibility of carrying that gene. I've received many of her traits physically, and it's highly possible that I could have inherited the genes for mutating cells (as my grandfather is related to my grandmother's by... 13 or more cousins apart?). Diabetes and heart disease are also a big factor in my family as well, so I'm pretty lucky at the moment to not show many symptoms other than depression and Asperger Syndrome.
Right now, though, as prevalent as cancer has been in my life, I've tried to put my mind away from that. It's something that I won't have to hopefully worry about again for at least a little longer. I'm not that much of a positive person, but I've developed tactics over the years that allow me to resume normal life even after something like a death happens in the family.
Be happy that you are alive. Do not worry about death or ailments, as they will bring you down. An ignorant decision, yes, but it has helped me over these past few months move on and function in life. It's a lifesaver. The depressive thoughts that once brought me down to tears and suicidal thoughts transformed into an emotional disconnect from society. It's been better for those around me as I'm not hindering them and their lives as much.
Do not worry, BY.
We are all here for you, whether you are nearby or thousands of miles away.
People before, during, and after us will say otherwise, but they are wrong.
The mind is a beautiful place, one that does not need physical connection to feel emotion or have friends.
I hope that you too may one day ascertain a clear conscience that allows you to think coherently again.
Edit: apparently I can't read between the fine lines and remember who said what.
I have a friend in school who is currently getting treatment for brain cancer. He is a senior and our band's drum major.
Also, I have not told this community, but both of my grandparents died of cancer last year, my grandmother on October 29th and my grandfather on December 27th. Well, one from complications leading to cancer. I had lived with my grandmother my entire life, and I've visited my father on several occasions since he lives in Florida.
My grandmother had been two types of cancer. The first type was breast cancer, which was easily removable and treatable (after a while of radiation treatments), and never came back. However, in September, she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer and needed a hysterectomy to remove the cancerous cells. Fortunately, she had caught it in its early stages, so she was released a few days after getting the surgery and was going to take some antibiotics. Unfortunately, that antibiotic in particular did not prevent a c. diff infection from occurring, which put her in the hospital again. They were able to give treatments before it did much damage, and for a few days, it looked really good, and that she would go home soon. Suddenly, she had gotten the infection back again due to the doctors taking her off of the medicine and it killed off her small intestine and colon, two organs in the body essential to survival. I remember that Tuesday when I had last saw her.
I still get throbbing heartaches when I think of my grandmother. It's hard not to cry even when typing this. My grandfather had brain cancer and when I saw him last (April 2013), he had personally told me that the doctors told him that he only had about a year to live (he had a stroke which caused the cancer to come back, along with paralyzing his right side of his body). I didn't know him as much, but he was about the most prominent male figure in my family (my father is not involved with the family).
It's likely, considering that my grandmother's side of the family is genetically predisposed to cancer, that I will also not live a full life due to a possibility of carrying that gene. I've received many of her traits physically, and it's highly possible that I could have inherited the genes for mutating cells (as my grandfather is related to my grandmother's by... 13 or more cousins apart?). Diabetes and heart disease are also a big factor in my family as well, so I'm pretty lucky at the moment to not show many symptoms other than depression and Asperger Syndrome.
Right now, though, as prevalent as cancer has been in my life, I've tried to put my mind away from that. It's something that I won't have to hopefully worry about again for at least a little longer. I'm not that much of a positive person, but I've developed tactics over the years that allow me to resume normal life even after something like a death happens in the family.
Be happy that you are alive. Do not worry about death or ailments, as they will bring you down. An ignorant decision, yes, but it has helped me over these past few months move on and function in life. It's a lifesaver. The depressive thoughts that once brought me down to tears and suicidal thoughts transformed into an emotional disconnect from society. It's been better for those around me as I'm not hindering them and their lives as much.
Do not worry, BY.
We are all here for you, whether you are nearby or thousands of miles away.
People before, during, and after us will say otherwise, but they are wrong.
The mind is a beautiful place, one that does not need physical connection to feel emotion or have friends.
I hope that you too may one day ascertain a clear conscience that allows you to think coherently again.
Edit: apparently I can't read between the fine lines and remember who said what.
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Re: Life is unfair
by MessengerOfDreams » February 28th, 2014, 1:08 pm
...psst... it's Blackyoshi, not Star King
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Re: Life is unfair
by WickedOreo » February 28th, 2014, 2:24 pm
MessengerOfDreams wrote:...psst... it's Blackyoshi, not Star King
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Re: Life is unfair
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by -BY » March 2nd, 2014, 1:51 pm
While I'm not SK, I do still know how you do feel about this stuff. And... I'd rather want to spend a good while alone for now, rather than talking about it. It's been a mistake to bother everyone with a topic of these in the first place.
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The ships will arrive at a better port. While it's not within our reach... I do know they're somewhere and do wish anyone luck out there.
And hell. We'd better get ready as well instead of running away from it. It'll be an awesome journey to a better place after all. : )
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The ships will arrive at a better port. While it's not within our reach... I do know they're somewhere and do wish anyone luck out there.
And hell. We'd better get ready as well instead of running away from it. It'll be an awesome journey to a better place after all. : )
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Re: Life is unfair
by Luqueasaur » March 3rd, 2014, 12:32 pm
My aunt died of cancer. One of the most lovely person you could ever meet. I'm not talking of her in that manner due of she being my family, but because, indeed, she was a sweet, extra-terrestrially good person. In fact, it was on an April Fools. But it was no joke.
This year on High School a girl's on my class can't frequent school due to a cancer. She must everyday treat herself on the closest metropolis, which takes three hours only travelling to perform. Yes, pal, life is not fair.
People are monsters. They slay, they destroy, they burn ruthlessly and they act as if they are angels. Life would only be less fair if we lived in a dictatorship were riches rules and the poor suffers. Frankly, isn't it how it works currently? I barely doubt things can get worse.
Yes, they can get worse. As much as everything seems to be possible to get better, they can get worse to inhuman points. The media is concealing, but the world is worse than you think.
Life is a *****. Faith is made just for you not want to immediately suicide after each atrocity you have knowledge of. Religion is made for you to believe there is a justice that we humans daily see not to happen. That's why you have to give a shot to afterlife. Because if you don't, life is senseless, endless and ridiculous. I personally don't have a religion, but I have faith... faith that things can get better when they seem infinitely terrifying. That's what moves me, that's what makes me stay in this world. If you don't have something to believe onto, you have nothing.
That's my opinion about life's differences. In the end, no matter how bad it is, it will reveal itself to be nicer. Because, if we don't believe on that, then on what would we?
I've had two depressive crisis in my life. One was while I was watching a Madness Zombie animation and, to avoid being eaten alive, the character commits suicide. As I played of this guy and thought one inch deeper about his suicide, my weak mind couldn't afford anything but being depressive for two years. Last week, I had a similar depression as I've - accidentally - read about some of the most monstrous deeds made by humanity. I managed to get better one week after, thankfully.
After looking life as a raw object, it makes me desire to alienate and only look in the good part of life. It's perhaps 1%, but if I don't stare at it, if I take a look at the most atrocious one percent of the dark part of life, I won't survive.
I can guarantee you that.
This year on High School a girl's on my class can't frequent school due to a cancer. She must everyday treat herself on the closest metropolis, which takes three hours only travelling to perform. Yes, pal, life is not fair.
People are monsters. They slay, they destroy, they burn ruthlessly and they act as if they are angels. Life would only be less fair if we lived in a dictatorship were riches rules and the poor suffers. Frankly, isn't it how it works currently? I barely doubt things can get worse.
Yes, they can get worse. As much as everything seems to be possible to get better, they can get worse to inhuman points. The media is concealing, but the world is worse than you think.
Life is a *****. Faith is made just for you not want to immediately suicide after each atrocity you have knowledge of. Religion is made for you to believe there is a justice that we humans daily see not to happen. That's why you have to give a shot to afterlife. Because if you don't, life is senseless, endless and ridiculous. I personally don't have a religion, but I have faith... faith that things can get better when they seem infinitely terrifying. That's what moves me, that's what makes me stay in this world. If you don't have something to believe onto, you have nothing.
That's my opinion about life's differences. In the end, no matter how bad it is, it will reveal itself to be nicer. Because, if we don't believe on that, then on what would we?
I've had two depressive crisis in my life. One was while I was watching a Madness Zombie animation and, to avoid being eaten alive, the character commits suicide. As I played of this guy and thought one inch deeper about his suicide, my weak mind couldn't afford anything but being depressive for two years. Last week, I had a similar depression as I've - accidentally - read about some of the most monstrous deeds made by humanity. I managed to get better one week after, thankfully.
After looking life as a raw object, it makes me desire to alienate and only look in the good part of life. It's perhaps 1%, but if I don't stare at it, if I take a look at the most atrocious one percent of the dark part of life, I won't survive.
I can guarantee you that.
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Re: Life is unfair
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by NanTheDark » March 3rd, 2014, 2:09 pm
I don't know anyone who has cancer, had cancer, or died of cancer.
May I punch in?
Luqueasaur. Of course we know there's huge darkness in this world.
When I turn on the news, all there is is murder. Death. People robbing stuff. Girls getting raped. 3 year old girls getting raped. People dying in Venezuela (go Venezuela!). This korean jerk killing his own uncle, I dunno.
You say the darkness is concealed, but that's crap. Most of it is on plain sight all the time. The media does mention it. A lot.
I even heard of a time a guy murdered and raped and had a bunch of people commit suicide as some kind of ritual thing.
And there's people starving to death in Africa.
And Latinamerica was born when a bunch of spanish criminals and low-lives arrived, took all the treasures, destroyed all culture, killed all the men and raped all the women. That's pretty much it.
That's what you say is concealed.
Well, you know what the media doesn't tell you about?
About all the people who are nice to each other. The people who do charity work. How when a nation was in trouble, other nations helped. Remember Japan, Haiti, Chile (Woohoo Chile!)... Nobody talks about those who actively work to save people. Nobody talks about all those working to save the environment, people just mention how we're screwing things up. Nobody talks about those who help.
There is darkness in this world. But there's also light. A lot of light. And love.
A lot of people who will love you.
You will have friends, and family, you'll have your community, and many others who will be willing to help you with anything.
Love.
That's why we came, and that's why we live.
People express it and experience it in different ways, but it's always there.
Life has no purpose, you say. Well... that's true and false at the same time.
Your life has as much meaning and purpose as you choose to give it. That's what I think.
Cheer up, son. Just think and act positively, and you'll start seeing what I see.
Same to everyone else. Cancer is something serious, of course, but it's not a death sentence. There are way too many cases of people surviving it.
And... I dunno. Stay positive. ^_^ Phrase originally coined by Magnen
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Luqueasaur. Of course we know there's huge darkness in this world.
When I turn on the news, all there is is murder. Death. People robbing stuff. Girls getting raped. 3 year old girls getting raped. People dying in Venezuela (go Venezuela!). This korean jerk killing his own uncle, I dunno.
You say the darkness is concealed, but that's crap. Most of it is on plain sight all the time. The media does mention it. A lot.
I even heard of a time a guy murdered and raped and had a bunch of people commit suicide as some kind of ritual thing.
And there's people starving to death in Africa.
And Latinamerica was born when a bunch of spanish criminals and low-lives arrived, took all the treasures, destroyed all culture, killed all the men and raped all the women. That's pretty much it.
That's what you say is concealed.
Well, you know what the media doesn't tell you about?
About all the people who are nice to each other. The people who do charity work. How when a nation was in trouble, other nations helped. Remember Japan, Haiti, Chile (Woohoo Chile!)... Nobody talks about those who actively work to save people. Nobody talks about all those working to save the environment, people just mention how we're screwing things up. Nobody talks about those who help.
There is darkness in this world. But there's also light. A lot of light. And love.
A lot of people who will love you.
You will have friends, and family, you'll have your community, and many others who will be willing to help you with anything.
Love.
That's why we came, and that's why we live.
People express it and experience it in different ways, but it's always there.
Life has no purpose, you say. Well... that's true and false at the same time.
Your life has as much meaning and purpose as you choose to give it. That's what I think.
Cheer up, son. Just think and act positively, and you'll start seeing what I see.
Same to everyone else. Cancer is something serious, of course, but it's not a death sentence. There are way too many cases of people surviving it.
And... I dunno. Stay positive. ^_^ Phrase originally coined by Magnen
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Re: Life is unfair
by To4ooo4 » March 16th, 2014, 10:12 am
-KT wrote:It's times like these something/someone punches me back into our dark and depressive reality. I do prefer thinking the positive way, no matter what happens. Even if others may think differently about me. However. There are things that do literally hunt me through my life, no matter what I'm doing and wether I'm trying or not. It's clearly impossible to think positive about it. I'm talking about death taking my beloved ones, deseases catching one by one as I'm standing around watching how one by one finds his/her irreversible rest in the cold hug of death.
At this point I'm rather sad as I lied to several people in these past days, telling that I'm busy. Tbh. I'm not more busy than I normally are (Even if that's already a good amount, though), however... I spent my time at worrying and being sad, rather than being productive after all. While I've been wasting my time with these things, I do need to say that I'm worrying about my left time. For me it'd be enough to fulfill my dream of taking my level design on another level, visiting some places and dying in a library (Uhm yeah. That'd be another story.)
I'm just 18, but tons of people I'm knowing died way too young, so I do worry if my time will be enough to do these things. It'd be a pity to end that soon after all.
-Beware rant twist-
Also ♥♥♥♥ cancer. Serious. There's barely something I'm hating as much as this ♥♥♥♥. None, literally none I'm knowing survived this fu and it's hunting me more than often enough as well. Especially if I consider a "not-so-small" incident that shoots myself into the direction of people, who literally asked for getting some. Just today there's another person I can add to the list suffering from this stuff.
So here I am, wasting my time, worrying. Couldn't it simply go on without something pushing you to the ground whenever you're about to forget about the cruelty of our world?
Also sorry for that rant. There are more than enough of them recently and I'm aware of none wanting to see one more of these. Especially if it's pretty much my own problem, if I'm not able to keep that stuff for myself. : /
I agree, life is unfair. Whenever somebody says "Deal with it." to me, I think to myself "They don't know what I go through every day in life. They wouldn't survive for more than a day if they were me." . Also, you are very correct when you say that tons of people die young. For crying out loud, the average life expectancy used to be 32 years or something like that!
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