I used to be a quite religious guy, maybe even to the extreme point, but all I think now is that religion is giving blind hope to humans. Furthermore most of the so called religious people are just corrupted. Somebody says "God hates..." and some people (which btw when they call themselves sheeps, the name fits) listen just because "god, church and so".
In Romania problems are pretty big. We are forced to take religion class hours which are only ♥♥♥♥ the romanian orthodox church says. In most cases it lead to hostility from orthodox children for protestants (trust me, they are stereotyped, blamed and in some cases hated a lot around here), jews, muslims and so on. My brother told me something he heard at religion class when he was in second grade, he has a colleague who told in class that she had a "best friend"; one day she found out her friend was protestant and run away from her and tries to avoid her because she fears "not to be converted". Right now my brother is kind of what I was years ago so I try to teach him some things I learned from my mistakes, but religion breaking friendships? And more, taking pride you abandoned a friend just because of an improbable (or may be even impossible) "conversion"? It's quite sad.
Alright another thing. We have religion manuals which gives us "proof of God's existence".
- Acording to it, if humans created the concept of god, then he exists (that being a "proof").
Not trying to be offensive, but if a random schizofrenic created the concept of, I don't know, big cat-shaped snake which breathes uranium then does it make it real by default? - "Nothing in the universe can move alone, something or someone must be here to make them move and that someone is that all powerful and the ability to move himself alone."
That was my attempt to translate another "proof" from my manual. So NOTHING can move alone, but somehow the one who moves it can move himself? I don't understand ♥♥♥♥ and to be honest I think that's the point of some "reasons, proofs" and other "teaching" from religion. You don't understand anything so you think it's wise and deep because your mind can't find out what it means so you think you are not "gifted" enough to understand it, in reality in may be some random, meaningless ♥♥♥♥. - "God's existance can be proved by the laws of thermodynamics. First law says that quanitity of energy is constant, because it doesn't "loose", but it transforms. From the second law we find out that not all heat can produce movement, so a part of it is lost, so the quanity of energy for transformation decreases, making the Universe more and more chaotic. In time, the energy's transformation in heat will lead the universe to a thing called "thermal death", meaning all that had a beginning also has an end". From the first law, we find out the universe couldn't have created itself and from the second we learn that all that had a beginning had an end."
Huh? I am really not a fan of physics, but I do believe some things around here are ♥♥♥♥, yes the energy is constant, yes heat is a form of energy, but it just doesn't make a link in my head between this and "god, universe and themal dead".
This is not ♥♥♥♥ I made up, here have
two pages of that manual. It requires a translator as it's in romanian, but if you can make it work with google translate then good luck.
Now I'll tell you some things I heard in my class (doesn't always limit to religon class).
When I was about grade 7 or 8 or so, our religion class teacher (who happened to be a priest, which actually isn't uncommon as if you had a religion teacher and if it was not a priest then that would be "weird") told us about how are we going to be judged and how are "the poor souls from isolated tribes who never heard of Jesus" going to be saying <<Well if they never heard of Jesus or God, then they'll be judged with their own laws>>. I couldn't help but ask <<What about others? Muslims, hindus, buddhists and so on?>>, his answer was <<If they didn't believe in Jesus then they'll suffer the consquences>>. I found that ♥♥♥♥ and I asked <<That's not fair at all, if you were born, say a muslim and you were told by the parents that you have the best religion and all the others are lies, from childhood till adulthood then your mind was made and you can't just be judged for that>> again the dissapointing answer was <<If you heard of Jesus and you didn't take him in your hearth then you will be punished>> and that was the final anwer. Well what do you think? If I happen to have "bad luck" and be raised in another religion and just hear of "Jesus" and don't accept him by default then I am going straight to hell for being such an infidel person, no?
This happened this year, in german class. My one of my german class teachers is pretty weird, being obsessed with philosophy and other stuff like that and sometime has it's own weird concepts about the universe. I really don't always agree with her, but one day she decided to talk about religion, which she was pretty open and I agreed with almost any point she made.
<<I recognize all religions on the Earth, but don't have respect for any of them, any. I myself believe in a "God", but seriously all religions and their sects are just corrupted and full of ♥♥♥♥ (she speaks pretty explicit). I was raised as a protestant, baptized just because my parents wanted so, but I don't feel any respect for it, I just hate the church and didn't go to it in the last years at all. I am so stressed for christian's church disrepect to women (she has an obsession with respecting women, but I think she made a few good points around. Also next things may be based a bit more on orthodox church rather than a protestant one as when she moved to Romania (she is actually german) she had to learn a few things about the common stuff around). Sure let all the blame come on Eve for eating the apple, why not Adam aswell? He proved himself weak and pretty stupid too when ate the apple. Eve caused all the bad and the original sin for humans? I tought the snake did it, giving the apple to them. I'm just annoyed that women aren't allowed in the altar (at least here, they are not), because they were the sinners, but any man can enter there without any hesitation. Also why the hell women are not allowed in the church for 40 days after they give birth to a child (again happens here)? I think giving birth is something wonderful, not something to fill filthy for it, yet still we are kicked out for "purification"? What does that even mean, I think we are pure enough if we are the only ones who can give birth and continue the life of the species.>>
Okay some of the quote may have been altered due to my memory, but that's it in essence. While most of us agreed with her, there were three other girls (oh how ironically) that didn't share her point of view, that girls happen to be overly obsessed with religion (which I'd blame a bit the brainwashing, but whatever) saying that it was all Eve's fault for not having a power enough will to confront the snake and then women deserve the pain of birth for also tricking poor Adam in eating the apple and so on. None of these things were based on fact, their sources were "the church".
<<You know also what bothers me at church? They're style of painting people (same teacher, she reffers to bizantine style, where most of the muscles and so on are simply gone). I saw paintings at churches from Italy and the ones from the reinassance era were quite beautiful, of course there were people naked, but they were well painted, unlike one of our church, where I saw a naked woman, but with no muscles, no tits, nothing, she looked like just a few sticks with hair. Was that supposed to be a woman? That's so idiotic, how do you think you were born? With muscles, with meat, with everything, not just a bunch of sticks. If you don't want the meat to be shown at all then don't paint it naked, damn it.>>
Again one of those three girls to the resque <<In churches are only painted saints and as far as I know, saints are not supposed to have genital organs (she may have reffered to tits a bit, as no other "organs" were involved)>>. Huh? That a bit randomly thrown here and we started laugh (well except for her saying she was damn serious as she takes pride in reading religious books and spending vacantion to monasteries (which btw is kind of hypoctritic for her because she's kind of a ♥♥♥♥♥, but that's another story)). Uh, so if you become a saint, then you aren't allowed to have genital organs? Or aren't allowed to be pictured with some (or even with some muscles on)? I don't get it, here I share the teacher's view, if you don't picture it naturally, then don't paint it naked.
Last thing and I hope to finish here, the romanian Orthodox Church became a "state institution", meaning it earns money from the state for just...exising, not only from the people "donating" and the various priests who also have a second job, such as teachers and so on. Personally they are big pain because they are waiting precious money on simply building more "churches", when we already have a hell lot of them. If you just cross two streets there will be another church, litterary and they are no "other sects", they are all orthodox. Sure some of them may be historical, but there is no need to build others, right? Not all of them are on the map, but here I'll count them.
My city has 132 km², so in this area are:
- Two churches in my neighbourhood (ok, one used to be for protestant germans, but now it became orthodox, to make it "easier" for orthodox people
- Two churches in the center, not far from each other (if you are in the bus station, you are just in front of one, if you look at 180° you can see the other one, less than a few meters away)
- One church at about maximum 50 meters away from those two
- One monastery, just a few meters behind the previous church, not being affiliated one to another
- Another church at the corner of the street, not far from those two in the center
- A church, a few blocks away from the one before monastery, just in front of my school
- A church in the hospital's yard
- Another three of them, just after the hospital
- The cathedral which is being build for 20 years, not far away from the center (is that big, you can see it even from outside of the city)
- Another two churches in a neighbourhood not far from the "cathedral"
- Another in a neighbourhood just next to mine's (used to go there when was little)
Total: 16 (but I'm sure there are more)
Outside the city, there are lots of monasteries, build during the medieval era and they are not even that far, just a few kilometers away.
Now most of them were build before communist era, so I can't take full blame on them. What bothers me is the large as cathedral. Spoke to people around, spoke with a few of my teachers, most of their answer was that "We don't need a cathedral, we are doing fine without it and could have put the money on other things, rather than waiting them on just another church". That's a logical tought, no? Here, have my religion teacher's view "We need to represent the church and God everywhere, in every city. The cathedral is a must have".
For those wondering
here are a few pictures. Second one,
this one is another church from the city, is about either half either 1/3 from the cathedral, but is large enough.And as it wasn't enough, they plan on building a bolshoi (from ru: big, well in this case very big) one in the capital, here is the project:
click. According to sources, they want to make also some shelters in the yard, to serve as a "small hospital". Just ♥♥♥♥ damn it, build an actual bigger hospital, rather than a big large ♥♥♥ church.
Last words: sometime between 1859 - 1866, the then leader of Romania, Alexander John Cuza, confiscated the land of the churches (until then, the churches had a big slices of the country, probably more than normal citizens had). When confronted my religion teacher about the cathedral and how nobody thinks it will actually be useful, he said that back in those years, there was a contract that the state pays debts to church in order to keep the land of the country. No more pay, no more land (aka, the church takes everything back). Asked my history teachers (had two) and said the contract doesn't exist and that's a poor made excuse for the cathedral, googled it and got the same result.
Now politicians, use church as propaganda and also a way to waste our money. Have a
look. Here you can see the "Roman Voda" National College in almost ruins and the not-so-bad-looking "Vasile the Great" Church.
TL;DR
I used to be quite religious, just listening and believing ♥♥♥♥ just because "god", but eventually I opened my eyes and so how corrupt the religion can be, not it in essence as people who are supposed to represent it. I myself am interested in mythology and others, but honestly I've lost several respect points for religion, especially romanian orthodox ones, mostly because of their "leaders". I don't want my money spent on fancy ♥♥♥ cathedrals when we have terrible looking schools (if they are out of interest, they will get no support), roads that look like the battlefield of a nuclear war, less efficient hospitals compared to outside and so on. Also the several teachings of the religion are simply wrong, fine tell the kids to believe in god, but don't scare them or lie to them or tell them ♥♥♥♥ only to believe it, it's not okay. Sorry if cursed a bit too much in the post, but that's what I feel when thinking about it.