CHARACTER: show
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I am Shad. Kim. Your alpha and omega. Self-identified ♥♥♥♥ of edge, master of being blunt at the wrong times. As of October 2016 I am 21 and officially can drink if I so opt to.
I am Shad. Kim. Your alpha and omega. Self-identified ♥♥♥♥ of edge, master of being blunt at the wrong times. As of October 2016 I am 21 and officially can drink if I so opt to.
INTERESTS: show
► Interests
I like photography, specifically nature and scenery. I maintain a blog of my own where I showcase photos I find and feature photosets that people submit to me on the rarest occasions.
I love politics, and loves to engage people to milk their brains of all that is juicy and controversial. This usually doesn't blow over well.
I do some graphic design that no one really notices, likes, or pays attention to.
I like gaming, and tend to stick around for the games that everyone forgets for newer releases.
I like photography, specifically nature and scenery. I maintain a blog of my own where I showcase photos I find and feature photosets that people submit to me on the rarest occasions.
I love politics, and loves to engage people to milk their brains of all that is juicy and controversial. This usually doesn't blow over well.
I do some graphic design that no one really notices, likes, or pays attention to.
I like gaming, and tend to stick around for the games that everyone forgets for newer releases.
PERSONALITY: show
►Personality
I'm an introvert, and slightly apathetic while empathetic in silence. I'm antisocial but strive engage with people as best possible.
Some say I have a bit of a stalker/serial killer vibe, but in really I just keep to myself a lot, for a lot of personal reasons.
I'm an introvert, and slightly apathetic while empathetic in silence. I'm antisocial but strive engage with people as best possible.
Some say I have a bit of a stalker/serial killer vibe, but in really I just keep to myself a lot, for a lot of personal reasons.
VIEWS: show
►Views
• Religion: I'm an atheist. I used to be a devout baptist, to the point I thought I wasn't praying hard enough when my life was ♥♥♥♥. Since, I've felt like if there was a god, he or she would have intervened rather than tortured his creation in the form of a "test". Nonetheless, I love the Buddhist approach of Yeshua's scripture, to the point that I self-identify as what I call a non-theistic Yeshuan philosopher.
• LGBTQ: ♥♥♥♥ what you want, ♥♥♥♥ who you want, just don't break the law, hurt people, or trivialize gender and identity with unproven ♥♥♥♥. I sometimes feel like the LGBT community is exclusive, and that there is discrimination primarily towards bisexuality and asexuality, with the former being condemned if in a het relationship and the latter being called a figment of "questioning".
• Gender: I believe in a spectrum, not a construct, where more of what I designate as male-oriented hormones can lead to a male-based psyche, and more female-oriented hormones equate a female psyche. In the middle is androgyny and essentially "genderfluid", with a fluctuating hormone frequency leading to "genderflux". I do not believe in non-binary genders, and while I respect the idea of a two-spirit identity in native culture, there still needs to be science performed to verify such exists biologically and chemically. I feel like many, specifically the youth, use gender identity as a means of fitting in and exploring sexuality, and that some take it to extremes, hurting the LGBT community.
• Politics: Hit me. I love a good debate.
• Abortion: Depends on the timeframe, the frequency at which the person aborts annually, and the reasoning behind it. If you are just aborting to indulge a fetish, you ♥♥♥♥ need a doctor. Aborting because you keep getting pregnant from flings, invest a bit more in birth control and use it right. If you abort to avoid a disorder or disability, it's understandable. I believe there is a cap when the baby is big enough to be born prematurely, though.
Don’t really have anything else different from what other people said/worth mentioning.
• Religion: I'm an atheist. I used to be a devout baptist, to the point I thought I wasn't praying hard enough when my life was ♥♥♥♥. Since, I've felt like if there was a god, he or she would have intervened rather than tortured his creation in the form of a "test". Nonetheless, I love the Buddhist approach of Yeshua's scripture, to the point that I self-identify as what I call a non-theistic Yeshuan philosopher.
• LGBTQ: ♥♥♥♥ what you want, ♥♥♥♥ who you want, just don't break the law, hurt people, or trivialize gender and identity with unproven ♥♥♥♥. I sometimes feel like the LGBT community is exclusive, and that there is discrimination primarily towards bisexuality and asexuality, with the former being condemned if in a het relationship and the latter being called a figment of "questioning".
• Gender: I believe in a spectrum, not a construct, where more of what I designate as male-oriented hormones can lead to a male-based psyche, and more female-oriented hormones equate a female psyche. In the middle is androgyny and essentially "genderfluid", with a fluctuating hormone frequency leading to "genderflux". I do not believe in non-binary genders, and while I respect the idea of a two-spirit identity in native culture, there still needs to be science performed to verify such exists biologically and chemically. I feel like many, specifically the youth, use gender identity as a means of fitting in and exploring sexuality, and that some take it to extremes, hurting the LGBT community.
• Politics: Hit me. I love a good debate.
• Abortion: Depends on the timeframe, the frequency at which the person aborts annually, and the reasoning behind it. If you are just aborting to indulge a fetish, you ♥♥♥♥ need a doctor. Aborting because you keep getting pregnant from flings, invest a bit more in birth control and use it right. If you abort to avoid a disorder or disability, it's understandable. I believe there is a cap when the baby is big enough to be born prematurely, though.
Don’t really have anything else different from what other people said/worth mentioning.
VALUES: show
►Values
• Self-love
• Humility
• Charity
• A lust for knowledge
• Self-love
• Humility
• Charity
• A lust for knowledge
FEARS: show
►Fears
HOOOO BOY HERE WE GO.
I'm not going to make this ♥♥♥♥ up, first of all, because it affects me bad. I do have prescribed medication otherwise I'd be in lockdown hiding in a corner of my room whimpering with my heart pounding and my vision fading. It gets bad for me, rarely, but occasionally it hits without warning.
In a sequence of events, as diagnosed:
Social anxiety --> Generalized Anxiety Disorder --> Emetophobia --> Agoraphobia --> Anthropophobia
Basically what started as me being shy escalated into me being self-conscious about my body and my life. That led to me being a basketcase of paranoia and worry. After a bout of food poisoning, my brain developed an irrational fear of vomit, which led to me being afraid of vomiting in public, and after shutting myself off from the world and cutting contact to friends and family, I suddenly became fearful of people entirely.
If there is one fear I do have that doesn't coincide with phobia, however, it's the fear that I will die forgotten, that no one will remember me or know my name, and that I will have not impacted anyone in the best that I ever could with their life.
HOOOO BOY HERE WE GO.
I'm not going to make this ♥♥♥♥ up, first of all, because it affects me bad. I do have prescribed medication otherwise I'd be in lockdown hiding in a corner of my room whimpering with my heart pounding and my vision fading. It gets bad for me, rarely, but occasionally it hits without warning.
In a sequence of events, as diagnosed:
Social anxiety --> Generalized Anxiety Disorder --> Emetophobia --> Agoraphobia --> Anthropophobia
Basically what started as me being shy escalated into me being self-conscious about my body and my life. That led to me being a basketcase of paranoia and worry. After a bout of food poisoning, my brain developed an irrational fear of vomit, which led to me being afraid of vomiting in public, and after shutting myself off from the world and cutting contact to friends and family, I suddenly became fearful of people entirely.
If there is one fear I do have that doesn't coincide with phobia, however, it's the fear that I will die forgotten, that no one will remember me or know my name, and that I will have not impacted anyone in the best that I ever could with their life.
HOPES AND DREAMS: show
►Hopes And Dreams
To be happy. That's basically it. I may not have lived a long life, but I have lived through a hell of my own to know that we live selfishly, in the desire to achieve happiness with ourselves and our life choices. All I want out of the world, out of my life, is to finally be happy. Happy with myself, happy with my life, happy with my future.
To be happy. That's basically it. I may not have lived a long life, but I have lived through a hell of my own to know that we live selfishly, in the desire to achieve happiness with ourselves and our life choices. All I want out of the world, out of my life, is to finally be happy. Happy with myself, happy with my life, happy with my future.
FUN FACTS: show
►Fun Facts
• I caught a pedophile once, posing as a teenage girl. It was interesting. He called me gay, but had to explain how he came to that conclusion, which basically screwed him over.
• I used to be called a hacker in school, and rumors were passed that I killed a man or that I was developing nuclear weapons in a basement. Little do they know the prisoners I keep in the barn tho.
• I collect NatGeo magazines, obselete phones, forgotten software and image files, and am a hobbyist when it comes to woodworking, metalworking, and general DIY designs
• I can't eat seafood, beef, and I choke on vegetables easily. I stick to a fiber/fruit diet, and sometimes ground beef if I can stomach it.
• I caught a pedophile once, posing as a teenage girl. It was interesting. He called me gay, but had to explain how he came to that conclusion, which basically screwed him over.
• I used to be called a hacker in school, and rumors were passed that I killed a man or that I was developing nuclear weapons in a basement. Little do they know the prisoners I keep in the barn tho.
• I collect NatGeo magazines, obselete phones, forgotten software and image files, and am a hobbyist when it comes to woodworking, metalworking, and general DIY designs
• I can't eat seafood, beef, and I choke on vegetables easily. I stick to a fiber/fruit diet, and sometimes ground beef if I can stomach it.
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Spoiler: show
Who am I and what am I like?
What are my views?
How do I view the world?
What do I enjoy?
What I value:
Hopes and dreams:
- I am Shad. Shad is thee.
- I'm antisocial, a basketcase of anxiety, and 20 years old.
- My brother is a case of his own with physical disabilities and memory loss
- I live in the dark, struggle with gastrointestinal issues
- Sometimes I don't know my own gender or sexuality, because it's never constant.
What are my views?
- I am an atheist who, because of a Baptist background growing up, lives what I have dubbed a nontheistic Christian lifestyle, in accordance to what I believe to be moral and ethical Yeshuan philosophies.
- Money has no value to me, but I see myself as a commu-socialist.
- If you're gay, you're gay, and if you're trans, you're trans. It doesn't bother me, and I only view it from a scientific perspective.(i.e. what the internet dubs a trans-medicalist). I'm a scientist at heart, though.
- I believe in the death penalty ONLY in particular instances, and there must be explicit evidence.
- I believe in pro-choice.
- I believe government and religion should not be used hand in hand, nor should religion or minority be favored.
How do I view the world?
- It is a planet dominated by a self-aware species constantly undergoing evolution and mutation, which has developed a supremacy complex with self-entitlement issues regarding the lives of rare and exotic species, or what little fertile land there is to exist as they strip the landscape of its natural minerals for their invaluable lust.
- I believe the world is governed on lie and power, and we as the sheep fall to it every day, either by stubbornness, or because we have no other choice.
- I believe one day, humans will seek to mine planetary figures such as asteroids or other celestial bodies, and this bothers me tremendously. Stay on your own planet.
What do I enjoy?
- Art
- Music
- Philosophy
- 80s films
- old-school anime from the 80s-2000 era
- Cooking
- Cleaning
- Code. Puzzles. Problems.
What I value:
- Intellect
- Balance
- Care for oneself and one another
- Symbiosis
Hopes and dreams:
- To one day be able to live a life without fear
- To actually do something with my talents and not waste them
