Kay so I guess I should also post here and describe myself so you may understand the reasons behind my former trouble-causing behaviour, why I wanted so much to become staff (and still would like to, kek) and some more. And lol I'm not using spoilers.
What am I like and why am I so difficult?I had a troublesome childhood. My dad was such a huge egoist and sleeky person. Being quite antisocial since kindergarten, and on the other hand being blessed with quite a lot of intelligence, and you can easily imagine that this made me prone to bullying at school. Especially because I was two years younger than everyone else. I was also the absolute darling of all teachers, lol, and there were many incidences that I've booked as "injustice" and "one-sided bad treatment", and "the whole world being against me". In later years, I've gained more maturity and more self-control, but still, these experiences have influenced me forever. If I see something bad, I say it. If I meet injustice (and often enough, it's real injustice), I bridle against it. If you want a fight with me, I give you one. Still, I don't like conflict. I'm strident, but not quarrelsome. Often enough, I have goals that I'm willing to fight for until the bitter end. That's my biggest problem - I polarize everywhere I'm too much of a knight for justice and I can't let five be even, or let the church stay in the village that easily. On the good side, all these frustrations also formed me to a struggling nature who is not so easy to be taken down. I keep standing up again and again from bad situations and I feel like this is one of my biggest strength.
On this site, I've developped such a huge passion simply because the game and the designer absolutely fit my taste of what a game should be like (like Sonic Heroes) and aside the few drama that has there already been before me, there are just so many great things to see here and the general atmosphere is friendly like hardly anywhere else, the total opposite of an aggressive place of snobs like SMBX. But it could still be a tad more awesome and better organized. Problem was that this was the first freeforum I've went to without any forum or chat experience before, and suffering just from bad luck and frustrations that turned into drama, regularily fueling a cycle of doom (again, problem that I can't stand injustice). Things got better during the Runolympics, and that was when I've felt accepted enough to be ready on handling more responsibility and enforcing improvements. Being redlined from that because (and only because) of the bad past was a horrible frustration and so it turned into an unholy obsession. Especially when I was convinced that the same reasons they've repudiated me for, they've shown themselves and that formed a mismatch.
What does belong to my crappy mindset?I used to be religious but that stopped with puberty, lawl. Kinda on the agnostic rail since then, though I am a hopeful person and believe that things turn out well in the end. Thinking of death occupies me here and then. Not thinking about afterlife and such, but just the thought of your lifetime on earth and on everywhere being limited, and everything ending sooner or later.
I'm not sexual at all right now, I don't need to be. For now I enjoy being single. Of course I enjoy tenderness but I don't like being hobnob. However, I'm somewhat emotional at times and I also express that. I support LGBTQ rights for the sake of freedom and tolerance.
I show disgust at smoking and swigging and traffic offending and anything that bullishly damages / endangers your health and others'. It goes even so far that I don't drink even a drop of alcohol, and also no coffee. I've grown up with applejuice and milk and that way it stays.

I also don't care about fashion and styles at all because associating coolness with a specific brand is a poor mindset IMO and it only pulls money out of your bags.
I've grown up vegetarian, and later I've started eating meet a little here and there, but I still keep it very limited. My mum is very nutrition-conscious and she passed down a lot of that to me.
I'm very home-connected, and rarely leave my perimeter. The administrative distinct of Karlsruhe is enough for me. I don't have to visit faraway countries to be happy. Generally I like staying in a familiar and well-known environment.
I'm fairly following the news, but as much as I'm engaged here, I'm not willing to be engaged in real politics - too much burocracy and ♥♥♥♥. I know that the youth of today should try to be less apathetic, but I simply don't feel like there are good circumstances for that. I can't help but politics is still strongly associated with war, capitalism, deplotion, corruption, hypocrisy, lying etc. for me. As much as I am strong at meeting decisions, that much I hate burocracy and complex structures.
What do I enjoy?I've grown up with music. I have a strong bond to music, it helped me through many hard times. I like to sing, though for some reason I kinda hide my voice, I'm not needing to be in the spotlight. I enjoy it for myself. I've also played piano for quite some time, though eventually later I gave it up for other stuff and because of lacking technical skills. I've also grown up with chess, though I've dropped that as well as soon as I've found Petanque, the ideal thing for a competitive but not-so-athletic guy like me - fresh air, nice people, and action.
For TV, I like many kinds of entertainment shows with a certain standard (e.g. quizzes and game shows), and I'm also interested at watching sports (my favourites being darts, snooker and skijumping, and also football interest of course). I don't have any interest at anime or series like Steven Universe and also RL series like How I Met Your Mother. At school, I didn't like German and the social-science subjects (except geography), and I also didn't like biology, but I loved mathematics, chemistry and Latin.
What are my hopes for the future?Since math is my biggest strength, I want it to be my livelihood. I want to do research on my own (preferably for Algebra), and if things go well, have a professorship. Though I'm such a withdrawn guy, I want to start a family one day and have kids to let my personality and my passion live on beyond death and not disappear. When I have more time and a secure place in life, I also wish to restart chess and do more music by myself again. And for this site, no joke, there are so many nice things to come that I want to be part of, eventually also becoming staff.