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The 2016 election is bothering me, honestly.

PositronWildhawk wrote:The 2016 election is bothering me, honestly.

Yeah, I don't like a whole lot of the candidates, or I'm just not interested in them. The only candidate I might be interested in would be Carson and/or Sanders. There are people I know that do support those two.

My friend is very annoying. He annoys me too much and I was very angry. I also missed my old friends too much.

I want to end my Chinese dictation. I almost have it everyday and I want it out.

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Kimonio wrote:I have a deep loathing for capitalism.

Interesting. I've always thought that capitalism was one of those types of economies that were actually good, but I guess not everyone likes it or has to like it.

It has its flaws, primarily the worthless currency, the monopolies, and that the only means of survival is to have money.

I agree, in general, except that I really believe that they last one of Shade's reasons is the primally worst one. The fact that money has not been used as a means for ensuring fairness in a transaction, and instead has been used as a tool to oppress people, and ensure that want and lack run rampant through the masses is unconscionable on a purely humanitarian level. When I see constructs in the system that seem specifically designed to make it hard for anyone well off to remain so, and even harder to make it to that level in the first place, there is clearly something wrong with the system. When half to three quarters of the population are considered "poor" and needing help to SURVIVE from the government, there is a problem with the system. When that system is designed to prop up a broken situation juuust long enough for you to see the top, but not reach it, and disappears as support just as you approach the gap, there is something wrong with the system. Regular people working regular jobs CANNOT get ahead, and make it to the level where every day is not a struggle. You have to be an entrepreneur or a workaholic to get across that gap, and the former is not something everyone can do, and the latter is dangerous to the mind and environment of the subject. When people talk about the gap between the rich and the poor getting wider, and how that is a problem, this is what they are talking about. You are either destitute, and dependent on the government for survival, or you kill yourself, and make it to the big times. And by killing yourself, I mean everything from depression, addiction, heart problems and ulcers to crime and violence.

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You know what, I'll just come out and say it. Most of the time, I want to just get rid of money altogether and figure some kind of communism out or something. I don't think current communist countries are doing it right these days, but there must be a workable version of that. Gene Roddenberry figured it out in Star Trek. Why can't we?

I am somewhat afraid of life or just dealing with it. I ought to be looking forward to the future, but I don't exactly seem to be. I'm scared of the future and the possible stress that may come. Specifically, I'm scared of going to college next year.

Also would like to point out that our money comes from the National Reserve, which has only existed since 1912, literally 15 years prior to when the depression was about to bust hell open. But I feel we need to just have a topic regarding serious economic discussions.

Anyway, college isn't that bad. Just don't take out loans, don't overload yourself, and don't worry about what people think of you and you'll be fine. Don't join a fraternity if you are lacking confidence, don't go drinking or partying if you feel worried about the outcome, and just remember that you are an adult now, you get to call your own shots....to a degree.


Also, if I might say this, I really hate the POC trend on Tumblr, and the concept that whites today must hold the blame of whites in history, and be okay with being treated like ♥♥♥♥ because of something that can't be handled or changed. It's said that reverse-racism doesn't exist, but we do in fact see it, especially when you are being led to believe that being white is the worst thing ever, even if the concept of race is purely subjective to whether one believes it differentiates people or not.

Primarily what bothers me the most is that in the midst of all of this, saying anything against the injustice that is being manipulated and turning into a new hate is essentially like going up to Hitler and saying "you look like a cow". There seems to be no thoughts regarding how hate has done nothing but designed hate, and the "let people be mad and rant" mindset does nothing but develop more and more resentment in society.

I don't get people. I honestly don't. I'm at a point in my life where I am starting to be disappointed to even call myself a human being in the midst of the ♥♥♥♥ that goes on in people's minds.

I'm still not forgiving at all of how my dad has treated me in the past. It's been just over a year now since the last 'unforgivable action' and y'know, I can sit in the same room as him, I can talk to him. I can even smile with him and mean it. But I can't let the past go. I lay awake at night just thinking about how much I hate him and how much pain I still feel about it and suddenly he's this monster again. I just want it to go away. I want to feel like I have a dad again.

~MP3 Amplifier~ wrote:I'm still not forgiving at all of how my dad has treated me in the past. It's been just over a year now since the last 'unforgivable action' and y'know, I can sit in the same room as him, I can talk to him. I can even smile with him and mean it. But I can't let the past go. I lay awake at night just thinking about how much I hate him and how much pain I still feel about it and suddenly he's this monster again. I just want it to go away. I want to feel like I have a dad again.

Ugh, even I still can't seem to let go of the past. The first girl I talked about in my posts in "Who are you" and "The past couple of years": when I see her in the hallways or the cafeteria at school, I can still feel some of the guilt. The guilt of the fact that I might have annoyed her. It wouldn't be such a problem if I didn't constantly annoy people in elementary and intermediate schools. I'm pretty sure that whenever it was that my mood suddenly changed, I was thinking to myself "I didn't learn my lesson all those years ago", and that's when I started to become hateful and self-loathing.

I hate it when I annoy, irritate, or offend people without knowing it or how I caused it. It just makes me look stupid and abnormal. I also hate it when I can't express myself and my feelings coherently.

And I have a similar parent issue too but not as bad though. I have kinda longed for when I could move out of my mother and stepfather's place. I've expressed more anger and bitterness towards them than with my father, but I still, in some way, love them.

Purpleyoshi_returns wrote:I HATE HARSH PEOPLE! LIKE THE STAFF!

They weren't being harsh. They were doing their job.