The Mental Breakdowns of a Cancer Patient

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The Mental Breakdowns of a Cancer Patient

Postby MessengerOfDreams » December 11th, 2015, 4:56 pm

Hey. I think I just need a place to vomit my anger out. I mentioned to staff and Things You Wanna Say that recently I've been diagnosed with lymphoma, which is a form of cancer. Basically if I have half a brain this is where I am gonna post my anger and my rambling to help get through this. Because boy oh boy I need it.
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Re: The Mental Breakdowns of a Cancer Patient

Postby Charcoal » December 11th, 2015, 5:14 pm

I responded to your post on Things That You Want to Say here. I went ahead and brought it up in Get Things Off of Your Chest since it was a concern of yours.

But please, don't let this affect who you are as a person, and don't let it bring you down. I like seeing your positive side, you helping people, and you making interesting stories and art. Keep being yourself.
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Re: The Mental Breakdowns of a Cancer Patient

Postby Yoshi Boo 118 » December 11th, 2015, 5:34 pm

Hey, friend. Cancer is really ♥♥♥♥, and while I could just give you a bunch of platitudes, I'd rather just tell you I'm here for you. Honestly MoD, with all the ♥♥♥♥ you've had to deal with in your life, I don't expect you to just take this sitting down. For all our sakes, I'd hope this topic stays as short as possible. Because you'll get through this, and everyone on the forums is with you in this fight. Same with what Veso said; be who you've always been. If you ever have anything on your mind that you don't feel like saying in general...just PM me, alright buddy? :)
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Re: The Mental Breakdowns of a Cancer Patient

Postby l.m » December 11th, 2015, 9:02 pm

Yo MoD, if you ever need someone to hug or to vent your problems, you can always step on the chat. I don't like this thread at all because it just saddens me and makes me worry even more.

Anyways, I am with the guys up there. We will try to help you have hope through these times, even if the internet limits the communication. The battle only started.
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Re: The Mental Breakdowns of a Cancer Patient

Postby MessengerOfDreams » December 11th, 2015, 9:07 pm

Woke up at 1pm. In bed by 7pm. Fuuuuuck this winter is gonna hurt like a ♥♥♥♥
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also Diddy/Lucina <3

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Fanfic: Ecstatic Silence
Just wanted to write and ♥♥♥♥ like this happens, you'd think I'd know better.
Fanfic: Far From the Edge
It's a dance that's been a long time coming for a brand new man and an unchanging woman, but once one takes the plunge there's no falling back up.
Original: Jealous Ghosts of the Mississippi
The story of Rachel meeting Amber after a lifetime of silence and being shunned
Original: Your Hand in Mine
One of my most personal stories about a dangerous romance. Now to be published in a college lit journal!
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Re: The Mental Breakdowns of a Cancer Patient

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Postby Harmless » December 12th, 2015, 3:12 pm

I've seen what you've survived and been through. I don't even think you can do this one. I know you can do this. Hang in there.
Expect something cool here soon!

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Re: The Mental Breakdowns of a Cancer Patient

Postby Charcoal » December 12th, 2015, 5:51 pm

~MP3 Amplifier~ wrote:Lending my support over.

Mind if I join in?

Everyone, lend MoD your energy.
*raises hands in the air*

Give her the support she needs right now.

We're hear for ya. :)
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Re: The Mental Breakdowns of a Cancer Patient

Postby KABOOM » December 12th, 2015, 6:57 pm

Vesoralla wrote:Give her the support she needs right now.
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Re: The Mental Breakdowns of a Cancer Patient

Postby Charcoal » December 12th, 2015, 7:12 pm

KABOOM wrote:
Vesoralla wrote:Give her the support she needs right now.

Sigh...
Why do I keep messing that up?! Ugh...
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Let me go back and fix that. :facepalm:

I hope my oopsy there humored you and made you feel a little better, MoD.
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Re: The Mental Breakdowns of a Cancer Patient

Postby MessengerOfDreams » December 12th, 2015, 10:23 pm

Don't beat yourself up, doll- I prefer you get it down, of course, but I definitely don't think worse of you. My parents still are catching up. <3

Yeah, today was... a really exhausted day. Not like yesterday where I slept til 1pm, fell asleep at 7pm, woke up at 9 and stayed up til 1. It was more just kind of quiet melancholy. I thought at first "well this sucks but it ain't that bad right now because it's early and treatment is coming up." But I'm still the same kind of dry sick that I was before, but now I know it's not gonna end. And it's gonna get bad before it gets better.

At least I have M83 to get me through it.

It's always a break away from sorrow, and it makes the melancholy comforting.
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My latest story, and one of my personal favorites. A girl bound in silence finds the words to say to her prospective girlfriend as they visit her religious father in a dusty town on the edge of Kansas, where the crows' migration south brings forth anchored memories, the path to resolution, and a new start.

Form (25quared)
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Updated Works! Some of my past best and current stuff: show
Writing Works!
Fanfic: Shut Up and Dance
why do I write so much about dancing you don't dance you've never danced in your entire life
lying little ♥♥♥♥ with your ♥♥♥♥ story ♥♥♥♥ you
also Diddy/Lucina <3

Fanfic: Worth a Thousand Words
Because the world needed a Samus/Dedede story
Fanfic: Ecstatic Silence
Just wanted to write and ♥♥♥♥ like this happens, you'd think I'd know better.
Fanfic: Far From the Edge
It's a dance that's been a long time coming for a brand new man and an unchanging woman, but once one takes the plunge there's no falling back up.
Original: Jealous Ghosts of the Mississippi
The story of Rachel meeting Amber after a lifetime of silence and being shunned
Original: Your Hand in Mine
One of my most personal stories about a dangerous romance. Now to be published in a college lit journal!
-------------------------
Recent LDC Work:
Level Series: Leaves From The Vine (ft Star King)
For the 29th LDC, a theme of grassland taken through the growth of our designing society. Won the 29th LDC!
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Level Topic: Collection of MoD's Levels!
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