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Hey. I think I just need a place to vomit my anger out. I mentioned to staff and Things You Wanna Say that recently I've been diagnosed with lymphoma, which is a form of cancer. Basically if I have half a brain this is where I am gonna post my anger and my rambling to help get through this. Because boy oh boy I need it.

I responded to your post on Things That You Want to Say here. I went ahead and brought it up in Get Things Off of Your Chest since it was a concern of yours.

But please, don't let this affect who you are as a person, and don't let it bring you down. I like seeing your positive side, you helping people, and you making interesting stories and art. Keep being yourself.

Hey, friend. Cancer is really ♥♥♥♥, and while I could just give you a bunch of platitudes, I'd rather just tell you I'm here for you. Honestly MoD, with all the ♥♥♥♥ you've had to deal with in your life, I don't expect you to just take this sitting down. For all our sakes, I'd hope this topic stays as short as possible. Because you'll get through this, and everyone on the forums is with you in this fight. Same with what Veso said; be who you've always been. If you ever have anything on your mind that you don't feel like saying in general...just PM me, alright buddy?

Yo MoD, if you ever need someone to hug or to vent your problems, you can always step on the chat. I don't like this thread at all because it just saddens me and makes me worry even more.

Anyways, I am with the guys up there. We will try to help you have hope through these times, even if the internet limits the communication. The battle only started.

Woke up at 1pm. In bed by 7pm. Fuuuuuck this winter is gonna hurt like a ♥♥♥♥

I've seen what you've survived and been through. I don't even think you can do this one. I know you can do this. Hang in there.

~MP3 Amplifier~ wrote:Lending my support over.

Mind if I join in?

Everyone, lend MoD your energy.
*raises hands in the air*

Give her the support she needs right now.

We're hear for ya.

KABOOM wrote:

Vesoralla wrote:Give her the support she needs right now.

Sigh...
Why do I keep messing that up?! Ugh...

Let me go back and fix that.

I hope my oopsy there humored you and made you feel a little better, MoD.

Don't beat yourself up, doll- I prefer you get it down, of course, but I definitely don't think worse of you. My parents still are catching up. <3

Yeah, today was... a really exhausted day. Not like yesterday where I slept til 1pm, fell asleep at 7pm, woke up at 9 and stayed up til 1. It was more just kind of quiet melancholy. I thought at first "well this sucks but it ain't that bad right now because it's early and treatment is coming up." But I'm still the same kind of dry sick that I was before, but now I know it's not gonna end. And it's gonna get bad before it gets better.

At least I have M83 to get me through it.

It's always a break away from sorrow, and it makes the melancholy comforting.