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I was forced to perform fellatio on my coworker at his house. When I went over, we went up to his room since the living room was occupied, and the only place to sit was in his room. So, he used Google Translate to ask me questions, specifically if I wanted to perform fellatio on him. I said that I wasn't comfortable with doing anything of the sort, and said no, and then tried to guilt trip me into doing so, all the while he went into the bathroom to disrobe himself waist down. Eventually, he forces me to do the deed, but I cannot handle it, and so I gag and almost cannot breathe. During this time, I'm paralyzed mentally. I cannot think, and all I can muster is going into a ball and crying, speaking broken phrases, saying no multiple times, and he's trying to kiss me, touch me, and I don't know what to do. I want to go home, but I'm scared. He's a boxer, and I don't want to be hurt. After a half hour of him trying to... get off, he ends up doing the deed on my face. We talk philosophy concerning his religion (he's Christian, supposedly), and finally, a couple hours after the whole ordeal, I get some sense to go home and sleep. He wanted me to keep the whole thing a secret, but I cannot possibly do that. I confided with my close friend Erik and told work and made a statement to police, but that's pretty much all I can do since it only got so far as oral sex.

The whole situation was terrible. It made me much more dependent on human contact, and even would prefer to be around a trusted individual at all times. I can still walk to downtown, no problem, but it's difficult to be alone, since my depression flares up. I've spoken to Shad, Darth, and Doram about this whole situation, and I thank the lot of them for being supportive and talking to me throughout this.