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I said a month or so ago that I'd leave Runouw for a while. The reasons I thought of were diverse, the incident with my borhter made me realize how anxious I was getting about everything. However, everything makes me anxious, and I don't think that is the real reason on why I'm leaving the site. The truth is: Runouw is my teenage years. I came here when I was 13, and now, I am 19. I am starting to do a lot of new stuff, tutoring, MTG card design, and I want to focus on my college too. Last year I started college, but to me, I felt really similar to how I was in my teens. I think it s a time to close stages and open new ones, and sadly, Runouw is one of those stages I want to close. I am starting to become an adult, and I think it is a good time to let go of certain things, even if they are so much fun. I really want to do other things.

So many moments in Runouw, good ones, bad ones, some so happy I will never forget, and scarring ones as well. Runouw really was a huge part of my life, probably as much as school or family or RL friends. I am also cutting some connections with my old school not doing volunteering there anymore, but this is much more painful. I made the best of friends, and even those that weren't my best of friends, I still was able to get along with a lot of people; and for me, that is a lot. You guys are awesome, and I can't stress that enough. I loved sharing stuff with each of you, and believe me, I will never forget you guys. ♥♥♥♥, I am tearing up as I write this. I love this community, and even though I was never given a positiotn, I think I've acomplished a lot. Thank you guys.

Here is my secret with saying hello to people: I have no clue of why I do so. I don't remeber why I started doing it, and right now I only do it because I see people like it. Do I do it for people to like me? for people to feel appriciated? I have no clue, but apparently it sticked.

I went from being a guy who posted a SD post every other day, to a level designer that chew more than it could bite, to an optimistic guy, who liked saying hi to people, and now, someone that leaves.

I will still join the chat every now and then, and I'd still like if you guys sent me an PM or something. I don't want to completely disappear, so yeah. Thank you guys. Thank you so much, ♥♥♥♥, just keep being awesome guys.

~lordpat

I already said everything I needed to say on chat with you, but still once again, sad to see you go. Drop in whenever you like, we'll be here.

Lordpat, since the first moment you ever joined the site until nowadays, you kept being a figure of admiration to me. You were the one that actually did help me going on with LDing (and that's a topic I touch pretty often, but worth mentioning still), you were the one that greeted me first when I started getting into the community, and I'm glad we just kept talking and sharing each other's problems, to the point where we made really strong bonds. Heck, this is one if not the truest of the reasons we share a Most Notable Site Friendship medal together with Rai.

I guess it's a decisive phase in your life. You're turning 19 after all, and we all gotta move on, as hard as it may seem. It's healthy to focus on other stuff sometimes. Even so, you'll leave a really large hole in the site. Your marking personality - kindness, acceptance, intelligence - is not bound to forgotten, trust me.

Will keep looking forward for you to visit the site or the chat again- so we can have the same talks, and share the same problems. It's not like you'll be forgotten forever, anyways.

Goodbye. And keep being Lordpat.

I don't really consider leaving Runouw as a big decision, but regardless you will have bigger other ones to make from now on, so most like this will mean attention and time can be reassigned to more serious stuff you do. College, study, work, hobbies, well see for yourself.

I'm not good and not even a fan of large, pompous posts, so all I see is just good luck out there.

Damn, lord, never say never. If you really keep carrying us in your heart, and let Runouw stay a part of your personality, of your human being, you will definitely come back once you can again. It's not something that should be limited to your teenage years - go your way, we'll keep assisting you as much as we do already, and follow your goals as you see fit. Maybe one day you'll have more time and space or manage to accommodate everything similarly as Doram does, and maybe one day your passion for level designing or the LDing bizz in general will flare up a bit again, why not. It's important that you still want to keep visiting every now and then.

I missed you by like five minutes on chat this morning :((((((((

Anyway, I wish I had something more to say, but I don't have much more to add to what we've been talking about through PM the last few weeks. Still sad to see you go, but moving on from the past is good. Best of luck with your future endeavours. Hopefully we'll see you around. <3

I can relate to how this site represents teen years. I came here at age 13 as well.
For me, this site will also represent my years of healing as I returned here a few weeks before I left my mother's.

I will always remember you saying:

yo veso
how are you?

My response wasn't always the best or a complete sentence, but even a simple hello seems to have meaning to me.

lordpat <3

Knowing someone like you is always willing to say hi when I got onto chat- that always made my day better. Runouw won't be the same without you, but I look forward to seeing you every now and again. Good luck in your future, and thanks for the kindness and happiness you've given to me and other people.

:'(

This makes me afraid.

Seeing long term members drift away reminds me that all good things...

Sigh. Best of luck, lordpat.

I know you won't, but...

Please don't leave us behind.

We all get these moments, don't we...

Live long and prosper.