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OK. Let's trying doing this.

So the reason why I'm doing a recording is because I know I can't possibly talk myself and there is no way I could talk myself recording...recording just what I want to say and ...the reason...the second reason why I'm recording myself is because it has to do with my message, what I want to get across with this. Umm...and it isn't and I still hear that the perfect thing that it is closer than just writing a text and just posting it.

OK, so I hope you understand me under my thick accent, I will do my best to sound understandable.

I feel that I had a very wrong psychology of life. A very wrong way to look at life. And that is that someday I'll have a revelation and that I will be happy from that day on and that everyone would just ... change and I would change and that everything would just become happy from that day onward and I know it wasn't exactly that...this is exaggerated but it is pretty clear that it had to do with that...it was something similar to that...just maybe...maybe I didn't realise it was so exaggerated, but it sort of was like that.

Happiness takes work. There is no magic formula for happiness, there is no rule you should follow in order to be happy within a week, but if you want to be happy you need to get your ♥♥♥ off and start working on it. I don't know if I should say something like that, because of the censorship, but OK, doesn't matter...umm...OK. Happiness takes work. It's not something that is going to happen overnight, it's not like you're going from being the saddest person in the world to happiest person in the world, you need to work, you need to put effort into being happy. And it sounds to odd, but it really is like that. And I'm not saying that everyone can just like start to be happy, by magic. No, but...OK so...some of us need help.... some of us need help, but we don't need help from people who are in the same situation like us. We need help from people that..umm...either are professionals or that at least...are happy, that at least we could talk to. Those kind of people that just talking to them seems so fan because they're always happy, they're always warm and...I understand talking to people in real life is...makes you nervous, you like being alone...most of as are loners, but you can't really, you need to listen to a laugh....without a microphone, you need to hug someone, you need to kiss him or her or each or whatever, but you need to kiss, you need to look somebody in the eyes, you need to do all of that. It seems unnecessary, but it is completely neccessary. It's not cheesy, it has to be with the way our brain is programmed or something like that, but we need it and it's really important.

I know it's really hard for you and for a lot of people to just go around and talk to people...just randomly and it was hard for me, but it's probably harder for a lot of people. Um...my advice is that...first of all trying meeting up people who have the same interests like you. Like if you like anime, you just go to an anime store, to a manga store or whatever and just start chatting or an anime convention...well anime conventions may just be a little bit overwhelming, but just try to go somewhere where you at least share the topic...share the interest. That way don't even have to think of a topic, I think it is half the battle...when I started to talk to someone I was nervous, I didn't know what to talk about, but since this people have the same interests...so you can just talk about what you like and probably they like what you like [couldn't really understand this part]...yeah that's for your own good.

I know it's hard and I know this just sounds like another sad, emotional message from LP and it probably is, but give real life a try. Give real life the try I gave. Because no matter how nice, how warm a community is, real life will always be so much better. Even if your life sucks. Even if you're undergoind serious issues of all kinds. Talking to real people, hugging them, hugging your friends...showing them your emotions...that's worth so much. That's worth so much. Before I start rambling and saying dumb stuff, I just...well if I haven't been saying dumb stuff for all this time, I want to end up explaining a little bit.

I didn't leave because the community was toxic. I think I left just before this whole drama started. Umm...and...I left beause I realised that Runouw was doing me more harm than good and it had pretty much to do with what I said earlier, I wanted to give real life a try. I didn't want to be connected 12-hours a day on a keyboard...chatting with people I...I knew, but didn't knew them. I haven't ever hugged them. I haven't ever looked them in the eyes. At least not...before a screen. Can I really say you guys were my friends? I mean yeah you were my friends, but were you really the friends I needed? Are the friends on Runouw, the friends you need? And...I'm not saying you should quit Runouw, that's nonsense. I'm just saying try and find other friends. Try to search your real world, like PokemonGO, to find real people. It's not like you guys aren't real, but I think my point has been made clear.

So this is the end and this is my final hope-, not hopefully, this IS my final goodbye, this IS the last time you'll hear from LP. This is. I'm sorry, but this is how things go and I hope this recording has been of some help to you. If you hate this recording or you think it's a bunch of nonsense or you think it won't apply to you...that's respectful...that's fine but for the people that this record has spoke to...well...best of luck in life.

Have a nice day.