New Me (Veso) hopefully
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New Me (Veso) hopefully
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by Charcoal » May 11th, 2017, 4:25 pm
Well, I've been doing a lot better since last year mentality-wise. A lot of my fears have been laid to rest, and my mind is more open now.
There was a month or so of me going to church more and talking to my dad more about concerns that eventually calmed me down and took me out of defense mode (An aspie term that Asperger Experts describe mental lockdown). Then I started trying to help out a girl with Asperger's who appears to have a worser situation than me despite going to college and having a job. It put what I learned to the test basically because her problems and negativity have triggered me before, and it's like I'm looking at a reflection of who I used to be. Hopefully that will help me be more conscious of when I get upset when I'm doing things.
I'm approaching the end of my 4 month hiatus from Smash 4, so I'm excited. At the same time, I took a break from art. I wasn't approaching it in the right ways. It was easier to be more calm with Smash with the 4 month break because it was a hobby. With art, I was beginning to take it more and more seriously than I used to. I was too paranoid about having to make a living off of it and do this and do that and posting it in SOOOOOO many different places that it nearly killed the joy. So I had to stop for a bit. In the meantime, I hope I can find a better job, and learn more in Smash now that my mind is more clear.
And that's that. Hopefully I get my name change (which basically describes the new art style I was working with before I took an art break) so that I can start off under something new. A fresh start with a fresh mind.
There was a month or so of me going to church more and talking to my dad more about concerns that eventually calmed me down and took me out of defense mode (An aspie term that Asperger Experts describe mental lockdown). Then I started trying to help out a girl with Asperger's who appears to have a worser situation than me despite going to college and having a job. It put what I learned to the test basically because her problems and negativity have triggered me before, and it's like I'm looking at a reflection of who I used to be. Hopefully that will help me be more conscious of when I get upset when I'm doing things.
I'm approaching the end of my 4 month hiatus from Smash 4, so I'm excited. At the same time, I took a break from art. I wasn't approaching it in the right ways. It was easier to be more calm with Smash with the 4 month break because it was a hobby. With art, I was beginning to take it more and more seriously than I used to. I was too paranoid about having to make a living off of it and do this and do that and posting it in SOOOOOO many different places that it nearly killed the joy. So I had to stop for a bit. In the meantime, I hope I can find a better job, and learn more in Smash now that my mind is more clear.
And that's that. Hopefully I get my name change (which basically describes the new art style I was working with before I took an art break) so that I can start off under something new. A fresh start with a fresh mind.
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