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Hello, I'm lordpat. I haven't designed in like two years, and now I feel impotant to make this topic.
When you start taking designing somewhat seriously, you start becoming an artist. And art isn't all nice and sunny. You become susceptive to other people's opinions, and sometimes they aren't nice. I remember back in one LDC (21st?) where I would have gotten second if it wasn't because of Buff's judging. I become so pissed that I even ratned at Buff and such. I have now apologized as that was incredibly stupid. I was just heart broken, I could have gotten second, but I got fourth. It isn't bad, but I was just so mad anywa. But no, that wasn't the reason I stopped designing.
So there is a designer I really respect that I always asked his opinions on my levels. He said they were ok all the time. Not even good, just ok. And that was really horrible for me. What have I done for him just to tell me that a level was good? I kept on trying and trying, but it was uselss. My levels were indeed ok. Ok, ok, ok. Nothing else. It was so bad that I had to stop designing, because it was horrible to me. And I did, I stopped designing. Just because one person said my level were ok. Kind of ridiculous. But that is when you are an artist, one person can mean the world to you.
But you know what? I am older now, I am wiser now (I am crazier now), and just ♥♥♥♥ all this ♥♥♥♥. Just ♥♥♥♥ it all. I love designing too much for just that to stop me. So yeah, not all people loved my levels, so yeah, I am gonna recieve negative feedback everyonce in a while. I may be a bad designer, but man, a passionate designer I am. If you are a passionate designer, really ask yourself it quitting designing just because of some people opinion is worth it.
Get ready pals, I am coming back! Time to spam some trees!

Yay, I'm really glad you are back! You are one of my favorites level designers in the graphical aspect. Your colorful tree arrangement scheme for example, is one of the references I use yet to this day for the graphics of my levels.

Anyway... How about a duel to get into the hang of LDing again?

EDIT: Opinions doesn't really matter in LDing sometimes. You are doing it just for fun after all. Not like all opinions will reflect the truth anyway. Of course, if you are in a contest, your level will obviously be judged, and will get positive/negative crictic. If you are willing to join an LDC, sometimes you just need to accept that and improve.

Man, I totally agree with you. When you do something, you don't do it just because of people opinions, but because you feel pleasure doing it. We don't need people's opinions to see how beautiful is our art, because every art is beautiful, if made with love. Ratings, contests, rewards? Pfft. I don't care. As long as I'm proud and happy of what I did, I don't need any proof of someone saying that it's good. And it's very good to see one person that design not just for getting a trophy in a contest, but for passion.

Alright. Feeling bad now. For visible reasons.
It's nice to have you back. And ignore me this time. D :

It wasn't your fault by any means. You were just being honest, you can't control your taste. It was me that was overweighting your opinion, I am not mad at you anymore. I just realized that I was the dumb one there. Don't worry, you did nothing wrong.
(Maybe we should continue talking via PM)

Woo! Spamming trees! Spamming coins!

Welcome back to LDing!

(i'm really happy. I personally really loved your levels)

I'm glad youre back. I 100% identify with what you're saying. I spent two years trying to recreate the success I had with Dark to the point that I lost touch with designing for amusement, enjoyment, or love of the craft, but for personal gain and glory. I've recently gone back to it and appreciated what I was able to accomplish instead of trying to replace it in my mind. My point is that I agree and recommend that you look at your best work and see what makes it truly work, and appreciate what you can do. And, while accepting the criticism of others and learning from it gracefully, never forget that you have to design for yourself first and foremost.

It always pleases me much if a renowned and great LDer returns back, and I already look forward to what we're gonna see from you. Lots of coins ...

And I can understand the frustration you've had at the 21st LDC. If you didn't rage in an inapropriate or offensive way, you don't need to be ashamed of it.

I think I found a role model. Awesome. *thumbs up*

FrozenFire wrote:Man, I totally agree with you. When you do something, you don't do it just because of people opinions, but because you feel pleasure doing it. We don't need people's opinions to see how beautiful is our art, because every art is beautiful, if made with love. Ratings, contests, rewards? Pfft. I don't care. As long as I'm proud and happy of what I did, I don't need any proof of someone saying that it's good. And it's very good to see one person that design not just for getting a trophy in a contest, but for passion.

Unfortunately, I disagree somewhat.

Of course doing what you love best because of passion drives is something everyone should feel in their life. Yet an audience is important as an artist, no matter what field you do. Storytelling, music, painting... no audience means you don't have a voice. And when your art cannot speak for itself, then, it's sort of pointless.

But hey, welcome back Lordpat. It's incredible how you still have a long-waiting audience even after two years, including me.