Thumbs up x5
by Doram » August 28th, 2016, 6:44 pm
- This post by Doram was thumbed up by: 5
- #4715 (August 28th, 2016, 7:51 pm) • Harmless (August 29th, 2016, 7:28 pm) • Karyete (August 29th, 2016, 10:05 am) • Oranjui (August 28th, 2016, 7:13 pm) • ~Yuri (August 28th, 2016, 6:52 pm)
Sorry, I needed to wait until he was truly gone, and I could not affect the process. I believe that Shroom's biggest danger to us was exactly this. Inspiring hatred. He was so broken, and so insistent that the brokenness was so right. And he spoke with passion, and half-truths, and was charismatic enough that you believed. Believed just long enough for it all to turn to ash in your mouth, as you stop, and think, and realize how broken it all is. You cannot truly hate what you do not love first, and we all loved Shroom. We loved his passion for SM63, for we shared in it. We loved his passion for making this place the best it could be, because we shared that too. And yet, we've all been through too much - learned too much about ourselves and each other to fall for the rest. Exclusion, stubborn close-mindedness, trying to silence people we don't agree with. Those aren't values we agree with. Something was wrong here, and so we struggled. If he could just see that there are better ways to achieve the worthwhile goals... But he couldn't, and we struggled against that. We've been thrashing back and forth for well over a year with this, as he cemented what was wrong in his mind, and twisted everything we shared into something uglier than we could ever have imagined it to be. So many people have quit positions of authority, and even left the site entirely over this. I'm amazed and horrified that this has been so traumatic for so many, and I was exactly as powerless as any of you to change him. I said all of this to him, in every way I could think of phrasing it, and he could not hear me.
We've done the only thing we can, at the last. We've shut him out, and made sure that he can't spread any more poison, out of pure self-defense. Now our healing can truly begin. As upset as I am about the whole thing, I wish Shroom well. I hope that someday he can figure out that life is better when you work together with others, accepting who they are, and learning from their differences. I do not wish on anyone, the miserable life he seems to be seeking. But I also know that the community I've been a proud member of for so many years is doing something right, and is worth fighting for. I will stay and continue to reach out to everyone who passes by, and share the things I love, and find all the little ways that we can make each others' lives better, even if for only a few hours each day. That has not, and will never change about this place. And I will do all in my power to keep it so, as long as I live.
Many times we say that we came together over SM63, but we've found something more. We've made a community - as real as it can be, from a certain perspective. A place to belong, and to turn to for help, and to be cheered up, and to enjoy cheering others. To share, and create, and learn, and grow. I still believe in it. I'm still working to continue and grow that vision, and I hope all that now remain can find some portion of that same dedication. If we hang on to that, this place WILL never truly die. Let's give it one more chance, eh.