Tearing Paper

[Harmless]

Mm'k, neat. Glad I'm not alone.

On a brighter topic, graphics nearly matched Nin10mode.

[Ayrayen]

The stories are gripping and they hang on to a red thread which makes it even more intriguing. I especially like that the story symbolizes the surroundings in Mario's world making "you" a part of it which is a really interesting experience since I've never seen it before.
And not to forget the stories, they are as i mentioned gripping but also very touching, it reminds me of novels I've read before.

Now the whole game play is a bit slow considering it is a story based level so patience or interest is needed in these levels.
I could even feel a bit disoriented with all the stuff going on but that might be just me being new to Super Mario 63 again.
Anyways it's really well made and i think it deserves a "Good Job" mark.

~Ayrayen

[~MP3 Amplifier~]

So it's been 4 years since I made this.

Really? Already?

I just played it again and I felt like sharing my interpretations of my creation, from then to now. It's interesting to see the way I used to think. I've matured a lot since and I feel like I can pinpoint certain elements of this series that say an awful lot more about me than I'd originally thought.
I also can't believe how many things were in the story that I'd almost foreseen about the future, or how many things I unintentionally put in there that actually have way more meaning than I planned.

1. The element of water being a place of relaxation, in the good dreams. Water has always been a place of happiness for me, some of my best memories are being in the ocean and I've always been told by my family I'm probably secretly a mermaid.

2. Probably one of the most important points of this story, and something only a small handful of people on here knew at the time, but I was in love. Very much in love when I look back on it too, as I've never felt that way about anyone else since. The idea of Kieran being Lilly's saviour was my way of translating how much I craved this person to love me back and to save me, take care of me, stay by my side for always. Reading the story again and remembering how I felt then about that dear person, has moved me quite deeply. Because I was still very young and yet I can see with years more of experience now that I really was in love. (why am I sharing this? well what makes it significant is that it's someone you all probably know haha, but my secret stays secret)

3. This was at a tricky time of my life, 2013 was pretty much a trainwreck of a year, so the end of 2012 when I made this was sort of the beginning of what was going to be a very difficult time. I'd foreseen so much I can't believe. E.g. Lilly being chased by social workers in blue city. A month after I'd wrote that part of the story, a similar thing had happened in my real life. Then Lilly being drawn to the paper cuts is representative of some kind of self harm I never even had thought about at the time, just wrote it down because it felt 'right' or 'significant'. I had no clue this was going to mean something.

4. Lilly dying at the end with some psychological disorder is most definitely PTSD, and her death is not so much the fact she is physically shutting down in her sleep, but that her brain has made peace with what she feels is the only option she has. I didn't realise just how deep I was going with that lol. I also didn't realise that I felt myself to be in a very similar position not long after.

5. I had at the time recently started training myself to lucid dream when I wrote the story, so dreaming in my real life was very much a form of escapism and I clearly valued my dreams an awful lot.


I just thought I would share this with anyone who is interested. It's funny how you look back on yourself and see patterns of thought that you didn't think you had.
Gosh I can't believe how quickly time has flown since I invested my heart in this little piece of magic