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Stepping down as an SR. Too much stress, too much anger, too much toxicity, too much politics, too much Supershroom... y'know.I don't feel that I can handle a relationship this intimate with the site anymore--the atmosphere has gotten far too internally heated, unnecessarily political, and overall toxic for me. I feel like I'm taking days off my life by engaging in the stressful mess that staff discussions have become, and I'm starting to realize that I'm just honestly not all that attached to the site and what it seems to stand for anymore. This was my first serious foray into taking on anything even close to a leadership role in a decently-sized community of any sort, and I've come out of it feeling really disillusioned about the entire ordeal. It was nice to have a shiny new name to display that I'm Here To Help at first, but being staff slowly devolved into feeling like more of a burden than a privilege to me. Though I don't mean to try to self-diagnose, I feel like I can pretty safely say that it's also been pretty damn taxing on my mental wellbeing over the past year or so. I'm sick of dreading opening the staff chat because I know how heated the discussion is going to be. Maybe the responsible thing to do would be to just grin and bear it for a few more months until the current controversy is over and done with, and then carry on life as usual, but I think there's also just a personal conflict of interests as I get older and move on with my life from things like webforums and online flash games. I've made mistakes, too. I don't like getting angry at people and lashing out, but I've done it a few times as a staff member, and the longer I stay in this position, the more I feel like I never deserved to have kept it after that. (Although, even though this is a little hypocritical, I don't feel that the ones who instigated that are any morally better than myself.) I'm basically just vomiting out words at this point, but I still want to apologize for those who I affected in that way--you should know who you are. I commend those of you who've managed to maintain a staff position for longer than I have, and for being so much emotionally stronger, I guess. But me? I'm sick of carrying this weight around with me, and I'm done.

I'm not leaving the site--I'll for sure stick around on Discord, and I'll probably still judge the LDC if everyone's okay with that, and participate in forum discussions, and just generally be a normal contributing site member--but I'm resigning as a staff member because I can't take it anymore. I just want to talk and have fun. I'm sick of dealing with internal politics. So, in short, I quit.

Don't try to offer advice or anything to me, please. I've been on the brink of this decision for the past few months, I understand the consequences, and now I've made it final. I'm not turning back.


Oh, and happy belated birthday, Shroom

Bon voyage.

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Wow. Everyone is demoting. What's happening?

~MP3 Amplifier~ wrote:Wow. Everyone is demoting. What's happening?

I've been asking myself this exact same question for awhile now.

SO, things have been... pretty quiet of late. Many staffers have left, as have many users. Since there's not as much to do, and not many of us left, all this hierarchy seemed pointless. So, moving forward, we're retiring both Level Moderators and Site Representatives (and we can revive them later if needs be), and promoting everyone in those positions to Moderator. So you'll be seeing a lot more Orange wandering around. Yuri has also agreed to try out being a Glomo (and Yuri over Ven, mostly because coding), so he's getting a BUNCH of training from me, and some shiny green for his name.


RIP blurple.

Well, what goes up, must come down.

Venexis had decided to re-dedicate himself to SCIENCE, and is stepping down as Moderator. Thank you for everything you have done, sir.

This hasn't gotten a response yet, but in case you're wondering- we're not looking to add any new staff in Ven's place. This place doesn't have the traffic to warrant a complex staff structure, but we'll consider it if more staff resign/the site activity experiences a pickup.