With Oneself

[lordpat]

I hear that voice.

I talks to me.

What does it say?

What does it say?

What does it...

What...

Words with hidden meanings. Life is a puzzle. Art is a puzzle. But there is one thing...

what does it say?

what does it say with those words?

does it say what I think it says, or does it say what I want it to say?

Is there any difference?

I don't know.

I don't know...

I don't....

I...

Why?

Can anyone explain me why?

Why do I have to be left behind? Maybe if I wasn't I wouldn't think about this... these questions...

these questions...

these....

I hear you now. To kill myself?

Everyone has left me behind.

Everyone...everything...

There is nothing left in me besides these questions... these stupid questions...

What makes me a human?

When is something a human?

How is something a human?

Why do humans ask, but never reach an answer?

Is it worthy to ask?

Is it worthy...

Is it....

It isn't.

Or is it?

It isn't.

Or is it?

It may be.

It isn't.

It may be.

It is not, you idiot. Die alone, die with pain, die with those questions on your head.

Why do you do this?

Because you deserve it.

Why do you do this? Why? Why?

Because you are a disgrace to humans. Everyone hates you. Do you want to be alone again?

No, I do not. I really do not.

Do you?

I swear I do not, I swear I do not!

Do you?

I swear I do not, I swear I do not!

Do you?

I swear I do not, I swear I do not!

Liar. You want to suffer.

I swear I do not, I swear I do not!

You are pathetic. You want to suffer, you want to be left behind. You want to be forgotten, you want people to hate you.

I swear.... I swear....

Shut up. You idiot. Nobody will ever like you. You will be alone, because you want that.

I... I...

Shut up. You idiot. Nobody will ever like you. You will die alone, because you want that.

You... you...

you are right.

As I thought.

I don't want to want that!

It is what you want, not what you want to want.

I don't want to want that!

That is your will, not what you wish you to be your will.

But maybe...

No.

Just maybe...

I said no.

Just maybe the core is not on the answers....

I am saying no. No.

Just maybe it is about asking... the joy of asking... of wondering... of thinking...

Shut up.

Maybe there is a point in asking...

Maybe it is true that we cannot understand the human... but that cannot stop us...

That cannot stop us....

That...

Maybe...

I believe...

No, I am sure.

I am sure. I can want what I want.

I will be left behind again, but I will move foward.

I will be left behind again, but I will continue.

Because that is life.

That is life.

That...

Maybe...

I don't know.