This whole issue has been on my mind since it started yesterday, and tonight I felt like actually doing some digging.
And god ♥♥♥♥ damn.
God ♥♥♥♥ damn, Shroom. Dude. You ♥♥♥♥ up. I'm not just throwing this word around like I normally do.
I mean it.You.
♥♥♥♥.
Up.
I can only give you credit where credit is due, and that's how vocal you are as a person, and how determined you are to get ♥♥♥♥ done. But jesus christ man. What the hell were you thinking.
Why the hell did you think this was a good idea, dude. Yes, I know there is a rule about "hunting people off-site", but that's not what this is. That would be if I literally went on a ♥♥♥♥ manhunt to find you and decided it would be great to disgrace you on the SMBX community. I'm not doing that. You did that. You literally had some stick lodged up your ♥♥♥ that you felt it necessary to go off on passive-agressive tangents directed at us, the community you were so intent on helping, simply because we disagreed with you.
Hooooo boy.......we've got bombshells, and I've got a bitter taste in my mouth posting all this. You speak like we're the ones to be ashamed, Shroom.
But at 20, what about this was mature? Taking your petty internet drama to an unrelated community, who had no grudge towards us, who we were members of(and are), and who we cooperated with on occasion in the past?
Are you that intent on retaining your own personal Shangri-La that you will destroy anything in your path to get it?
Did you.....did you seriously not learn a goddamn thing from your own nation's history? When a man trying to use this much power and hate-based rhetoric decimated your region and made it have to dig it's ♥♥♥♥ back out from ashes and rubble?
Because goddamn it dude. That's exactly what you're doing. You're writing a damn manifesto, not to make a change, but to both convince yourself that no one is right but yourself, as well as convince yourself that anyone you hurt is a casualty, a pawn, and that you are the one suffering.
I just....I can't dude. You should be disappointed when you take a look back at all this. And I hope you feel ashamed when you do so. I'm not intending to make this an eternal guilt, but you definitely need your horse kicked out from under you for a second, Napoleon.
I say that with the utmost irony being me. But it's true. You're an egotist and a narcissist. You're not a victim, you just want to be. You're probably used to it, and if that's how you feel worth something, you desperately need some help.
But that will never excuse your actions on here, nor there. I don't intend for there to be a war between communities over you, and I will chew out anyone who goes to SMBX to try and rat on you. But I'm documenting everything I've seen tonight over there.
And I hope you take these words in. From me, one of three who favored you exponentially for your activism here.
I am ashamed for your choices, and disappointed in your denial. The look on my face right now says it all.
You've let me down.I think this post should sum it up enough. As far as it goes on my end, this case is dismissed.
Sidenote: He broke Doram's rule for engaging in arguments or dealing with arguments, which was never, ever take it elsewhere. If one of you wants to make amends with a staff member over there, I could and couldn't care less. I just want this ♥♥♥♥ over so we can actually start making some changes for the better. I'm sick of this ♥♥♥♥ happening....Edit: I felt like adding one little piece to this. I won't come back there like Phoenix out of the ashes. I'll just be there to keep talking about SM63 and level designing and participating at Forum Games or such, and as long as the staff there is the same and its attitude doesn't change, I can only wait for it to disappear or for everything to be closed down one day.
But you did, Shroom. You did. You continued to come back and stir the pot. You continued to antagonize. You continued to try to turn people against people. And you continue to play the victim.
I want to make one thing clear here Shroom....the site doesn't run itself soley off you and I. It's a forum. A community. A group of people with similar interests. All you do is post. All you ever can do is post. You held a UR position, and that was simply it, because that's all you proved you could handle. I never thought you were ready to go beyond that, because I always had a sixth sense you would be too corrupted by the power, long before you ever got promoted. I even made that perfectly clear, long ago, when you did consider applying. I told you what it did to me, and warned you about it....but clearly you're far too better than everyone here to take anything into account. Even if it's a 40yo unpragmatic divorced father of one who raises us like his children and encourages us to become the best we can ever be.
This site started without you, and it will surely die without you. It may die without me, it may die without Ven. It's a site. It dies. Even your oh-so-precious SMBX forum you will likely follow the same road on will one day meet it's demise. We're nothing but factors, you and I. We're irrelevant to the bigger picture at hand, which is what the sitemasters themselves ever intend to do with the domain they pay for out of pocket.
And since you obviously don't like Rob as much as you don't like Doram, Oj, MoD, Nin, Nan, SK, and so many others, why don't you go run your own? Tell us how it works out. I'll let you in on a secret from someone who thought he was smart as ♥♥♥♥ and cocky: you are far more theoretical than practical, and that will bite you in the end.
Theories are theories. They are ideas. Unless you can confirm they will work in practice, they will always have a rate of failure. Theories are meant to be contested, which is something you refused to let happen with your ideas. That is your fatal shortcoming, and I inquire you to point out at least one circumstance offline where being this way to others or to your own community has ever benefited them, less so than yourself.
I'm trying not to be a ♥♥♥♥. I'm trying to be open to concept. I'm trying to understand you. But I'm also relating what I've done, how I thought, and what became of those ideas to what you're trying to do.
You "think" more than you "do", and you "know" more than you "see". If society was built off theory and not practicum, which you loathe, would we have a society today?
You've got a lot to learn, Shroom. You're too naive. You're too self-centered. You're stuck in your own world, afraid to admit flaw. I don't know why that is. Maybe that's all you were ever used to as a kid. Maybe that's all you've been used to, being treated like you were a flawed creature. Maybe that's why you perceive us as the enemy.
I don't hate you, Shroom. And I never have. But I uphold disappointment in how you've behaved online, and I devoutly wish you would change your pattern of thought. You're 20. You're not 10. You're not 15. 20. At that age, you are in for a hell of a ride, because if you thought we were a challenge for you, godspeed to the trials you're about to face.
It's time to admit you're imperfect, Shroom. But moreso, it's time to seriously, really, truthfully start acting like you are accountable for every action you've ever made, wrong or right. Your life will be hell if you don't.
Trust me. I know.
I didn't call myself the ♥♥♥♥ devil for nothing. I thought I was a god, I thought I was untouchable, I thought I was better than people in some ways.
And what do you think happened in the end?
Yep. Reality came crashing down around me. Just like it's doing for you. Except it's done it twice for you.
Learn from that, Shroom. Learn from it. You can't change the past, but you've got a future to make.
Don't ♥♥♥♥ it up.
tl;dr: I am sympathetic for you because I am you. I was in your position, I held the power, I abused the power, I hated the world, I felt the world should be mine, and it wasn't. And I had to come to terms with the consequences. I want you to do the same, to learn from my mistakes, and to learn from yours, so you won't ever, ever make them again.