Get Things Off of Your Chest

[Charcoal]

Seems understandable. I've gone against some inexperienced people before on there. The worst behavior I've seen was someone who had self-loathing which sorta reminded me of what I'm like.

[Charcoal]

Pardon my double post. I have some concerns I've shared on Facebook and feel the need to share them here as well.
They're very long, so if you don't want to read a lot of words, don't bother.

https://www.facebook.com/nathaniel.slawson.5/posts/1588985424761414

https://www.facebook.com/nathaniel.slawson.5/posts/1590719827921307

[Harmless]

I've told quite a few friends (mostly runouw friends) about this so I might as well get it off my chest already.

I'm transgender, and plan to start the process very, very soon. Male to female if you're curious. Been like this since 5 years now.

If you don't mind I prefer being referred to as a she (unless if you don't want to then whatever, I don't mind I guess).

edit: no I am not the kind of person to post april fools ♥♥♥♥ on serious discussion

[npromin1]

Harmless,that's deep,but I'm not gonna judge. I can tell you're a very nice person from your activity here on the forums. Anyone who says otherwise is just a terrible person.


Lemme just say that recently I have felt that the community ignores me,that they all just hate me. Well,I realized that's not true. Sure,I ♥♥♥♥ up a lot on the forums and ♥♥♥♥ up a lot on discord and ♥♥♥♥ up in general because I'm a bit new and sometimes just ♥♥♥♥,but I feel that this community does need to reach out more to some people. It may just take time,but I've grown to feel accepted a bit in the community. So I'm glad this place is here to support me in life.

I agree with every single thing on the following quote,and I understand how Amp,Veso,and PY feel.

secretly I've been this angry staff monster waiting to pop out and ban everyone for crap reasons. Mwahaha.

O...K.

I HATE HARSH PEOPLE! LIKE THE STAFF!

They weren't being harsh. They were doing their job.

I saw his post, and I was shocked. I was under the impression that he moved on, like when PW posted that he beat Earthbound (and this was after his ban), I thought he had dealt with the situation and moved on with his life. Sigh...I guess not.

I AM DEPRESSED AS ♥♥♥♥.
I FEEL LIKE ACTUALLY KILLING MYSELF!

You're not the only one going through these feelings. I'm socially awkward. I can't express my thoughts very well sometimes. I screwed up with talking to a girl or two. I nearly failed Driver's Ed in school. Then I look at my peers who have a nice car and a hot date, and god almighty I feel jealous and depressed. I don't have A's in my classes right now. I have literally stressed out so much about it and have broken into tears about these things. I've gone through enough with being in a behavior class starting in 5th grade, taking medication to keep me focused, being behind everyone else academically, and being picked on when playing Super Smash Bros Brawl. I have actually stabbed myself in the arm with a sharp object over those things. A permaban can't even compare to that.
Meanwhile, people in France are suffering from an ISIS attack. You are not the only struggling with life, pal.

...

Okay, I need to chill out now. Geez.

[Supershroom]

You maybe don't know the entirety of PY's story. MP3 was simply a little sarcastic (she's one of the nicest mod here), and Veso sometimes has a leaning to take such trolling messages seriously. Also, you've already read Doram's PM, right?

[npromin1]

Actually no,I relate to everything each of them are saying. I have gone through similar problems as Veso and feel the same way as Amp and PY. This led to me starting my life here on runouw.com. All my levels sucked,so I eventually went inactive until mid-Febuary,when I returned due to strong suggestion of a friend I had. (more like "THE friend I had") I saw the score of the "Level 1-6" I submitted in the Runolympics and took a huge effort to stay involved with the community. I feel accepted here,and now I feel nothing like what Veso described anymore. There are great people here like Shroom,Doram,Harmless,and etc. Soon,those other feelings I have will diminish away as well.

[Harmless]

Harmless,that's deep,but I'm not gonna judge. I can tell you're a very nice person from your activity here on the forums. Anyone who says otherwise is just a terrible person.

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What do you mean that's deep? Do you not agree with it or anything? Sorry, I'm just a little confused, that's all.

[npromin1]

It's just that it's probably really hard for you to tell everyone on this site that,like it came from the bottom of your heart. It's not that I don't agree,but the expression,"this is deep" can mean it's very serious,philosophical,or it can mean a lot to a person.

[Harmless]

Ooh, right. Thanks for clarifying. Though it was more so me just thinking "I might as well just tell everyone so I don't have to do it a year later" than something I desperately needed to say. It's definitely a big thing for me, but it's not something I've necessarily been worrying about. If I were to worry about anything it would be either how long it would take or how much money I would need to save (which also falls with the former).

[Charcoal]

You maybe don't know the entirety of PY's story. MP3 was simply a little sarcastic (she's one of the nicest mod here), and Veso sometimes has a leaning to take such trolling messages seriously. Also, you've already read Doram's PM, right?

Yeah, I can't tell sometimes if someone is serious or joking. Just proves how socially awkward I am
I also tend to feel VERY sympathetic with people struggling