Get Things Off of Your Chest

[Kimonio]

True, but I have daily political rants condemning the public's actions and motives.

[~MP3 Amplifier~]

I think I need to chill out. I am so so stressed that everything is getting to me, literally everything.
I feel like everyone is attacking me.

Sigh.

[l.m]

Its good to isolate yourself from other people for some days. It helps a lot, from experience.

[l.m]

Double post, but I feel like I can't handle this situation much longer. A lot of bad stuff is going on and I can't really help it but watch.

Sometimes I wish this place wouldn't be this scary. It's a really constant robbery and violence, and right when you think it's never going to happen with you or with people that you love, it suddenly happens and surprises you when you're not seeing it.

But it's so common, everyone thinks it's a normal thing, and every time when they come to see what happened after an event like this, they think it's just another insignificant case, and that it's never going to happen to them. Here, it has become a normal thing for everyone to go outside less, to look around constantly for any danger, to try to "prevent" it from happening. But most of the times it's just useless. It's just like there's a ♥♥♥♥ nigga in every corner wanting your head on a plate. And even if you manage to stay inside your house and never go out forever, they still find a way to enter, and... God knows what happens next. It's really hard to keep smiling after something like this happens.

And when you try to trust on people that is supposed to protect you - the Police - you keep waiting and waiting for a response, but nothing happens.

This is not right. It's really freaking hard - if not impossible - to live in an environment like this. An unsettling paranoia takes control of everybody, because they're all scared of what might happen. Everyone looks suspicious. Everyone IS suspicious. Everyone is really likely to come in your direction and try to stab you and grab everything you have of value afterwards.

Living alone might be a cool experience- on a safer place. The feeling is way much worse when you know there's nobody close to you who can protect you. When it happens, it happens. No mommy or daddy to call on for.

Is this just real life? *insert Bohemian Rhapsody joke here* Because if so, my view of life suddenly got really negative out of the blue (and it's ironic, because a while ago we were having a conversation about that in the chat).

Despite everything, I know it's just going to end soon. There's less than two weeks left before I just move to a better place. Not sure if it was like that all along or I just decided to open my eyes now, but I feel a constant hype and hope to see it all end. For me. It's still really disturbing that people here are going to face this situation for who knows more, and it doesn't look like it's getting better. At all.

But for now I just want it all to end for me. I really do. I don't think I was that excited for middle-December to come already in a long time.

[Charcoal]

There's less than two weeks left before I just move to a better place. Not sure if it was like that all along or I just decided to open my eyes now, but I feel a constant hype and hope to see it all end.

Just keeping feeling hopeful about that. I hated being at my mother and stepfather's place, so I looked forward to moving in with my father when I was old enough to make that decision.
My issue with that though is...the pain I've had, the anger, the stress, and negativity I had there still lingers. I cannot seem to let go of my past. It's odd how I can or try to help you guys out, but I can't help myself with my own problems.

[~MP3 Amplifier~]

Stay strong FF. I lived in a horrible city for the first 7-8 years of my life, and as a kid that young you don't want to be hearing about people getting raped and murdered, drug dealing outside our house, urinating in our garden. If we hadn't moved to a safer place I could have lost out on having a childhood. So I do understand. I know this is about you and not me but part of our community and having friendships is sticking together through the tough times.


Also I learnt today that I could legitimately have royal blood in me.
Apparently my dad's side of the family is directly related to Elizabeth 1st through cousins or something, someone on his side of the family did an ancestry line all the way back or something. Maybe the royalty is the reason for the serious aggression that comes down that side of the family...?
I have no idea if this is 100% true or not but if it is technically I am more royal in blood than Kate Middleton

[Charcoal]

Also I learnt today that I could legitimately have royal blood in me.

...

Jokes aside, that's pretty darn awesome if you do have royal blood.

[l.m]

Thanks guys. It feels good to see at least someone cares.

Also I learnt today that I could legitimately have royal blood in me.

Amp the lost Princess confirmed

thanks for the ninja btw, DB

[Charcoal]

thanks for the ninja btw, DB

Thank YOU for telling me what it meant in the chat.

[MessengerOfDreams]

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Harmless (December 4th, 2015, 5:59 pm) • Kimonio (November 28th, 2015, 8:55 pm)