Get Things Off of Your Chest

[Kimonio]

Two years later, I know what the root of my anxiety is this time. Three phobias. Emetophobia, anthropophobia, and agoraphobia. All seem to stem from coping with my IBS, with the emetophobia being the root cause of the latter two.

[Karyete]

Emetophobia

thank ♥♥♥♥ god I'm no longer alone in my little vomit-free corner

At least you now know how you can tackle your anxiety! How did you find out, exactly?

[Kimonio]

You know how I have IBS. That started when I got H. Pylori through some freak ordeal, but prior I was helping move my sister's furniture from Louisiana back to Texas. We stopped in McDonalds to get breakfast, and I remember the biscuit tasting like ♥♥♥♥. But it was still a biscuit.

On the way back, I'm feeling like my stomach hurts. We stop at the McDonalds for lunch, and I rush in. Immediately I start dryheaving, but all the toilets are crapped up. So I make my way back to the car, while my mom is getting food. Then I sit on the outer step of the SUV and try to catch my breath. Already in a cold sweat and everything. I stand up to get back in the car, and boom. Up comes breakfast. Multiple times. This continued until I literally felt like I was about to drop right there in the parking lot. So the whole way home, I'm freezing and shivering, and nauseous as ♥♥♥♥.

That next month was literal hell. I stayed in bed with a chill I couldn't get rid of. I couldn't eat without puking ♥♥♥♥ up again. Not even drinks stayed down. I dropped from 250 to 180lbs in a matter of days, I was that sick. Eventually they did bloodwork and found I had contracted H. Pylori, which is normally found in raw meats or fecal matter.

AKA: McDonalds sausage biscuits.

I started to get better healthwise, but I became afraid I'd be sick in public again. I stopped going out to keep from getting sick. Then I stopped leaving the room unless I felt sick. Now I can't get sick without getting sick. The reflux comes up, but it goes back down. I literally can't shake it.

Which sucks, because now when I eat, my mind thinks it's time to lay down.

[Harmless]

yeah, um

Thing is, you should NEVER eat at McDonalds period. They only very minimally pass the inspection test for their overall hygiene.

No matter how cheap their crap may look to you, goodness stay away from that place like it's the plague.

... also have you tried suing them? (inb4 that's not how suing works)

[Charcoal]

Hmm...that would seem to be a very good reason to sue. If a fast food restaurant isn't inspecting their food very well, that's not very good.

I recall the McDonald's near me skimps on syrup, but dang...

[Supershroom]

I was at McDonalds once during a school trip. Just to be there and having seen it once in my life and never again. (The bigmac meat was abysmally bad). So, if you can get around going to McDonalds or Burger King etc., you're always doing the right thing.

Also in the US this is usually a chance to become millionaire

[Karyete]

if you can get around going to McDonalds or Burger King etc., you're always doing the right thing.

I don't know what Burger King is like over there, but here it's pretty high quality. McDonalds is still crap though.

of course it varies from place to place but Burger King is miles above McDonalds

[Harmless]

Yeah, McDonalds is easily the worst, but there are a few places like In N Out, Jack in the Box, maybe a few others that are pretty good for being such a big name fast food restaurant. but the places you do wanna go at are places like Five Guys, burger., probably a few others I can name around Scotts Valley/San Jose.

[Oranjui]

i guess i don't really have much new to say from a personal perspective on the topic of all these shootings that i haven't already said on chat, but this video really ♥♥♥♥ me up. i wrote about vi's on gender video a while back, which in itself was really powerful and spoke to me a lot, but this is even more so. i haven't watched or heard anything that hit this hard in a really long time and i've been sobbing for the past several minutes from it. maybe it's because i was already having kind of a ♥♥♥♥ day for other reasons but that's beside the point. (some of the youtube comments are kind of genuinely sickening so don't read them if you care)

[Kimonio]

Told Ven, might as well be ♥♥♥♥ open about it.

My best friend committed suicide. It's partially my fault for not being more aggressive in getting her help, but at the same time I know I can't be that ♥♥♥♥ hard on myself either.

So if I seem quiet or a bit more irate, I'm not trying to be. I just don't cope well with loss.

(btw I know you guys are here for me and all, just do what you can, and get the mentally ill the help they need. However possible. Prevent this)